Sorry for mistakes...I can't spell..
Sorry in advance for any spelling errors. I suck at spelling.
I came home (to ohio) for the weekend. My stepdad called me on Wednesday and asked me if I'd want to come home for the holiday weekend. I said yes of course, because I miss my family like crazy! (I seem to be so out of the ordinary...compared to others my age). So i flew here on Friday morning and I am going back tomorrow morning. That is the only reason (well not the ONLY reason) why I am updating (because my brother's house doesn't have the internet yet). Anyway, so I've had a great weekend. My coming here was a complete suprise for my mom and everyone else because my stepdad wanted it to be that way. It was exciting to know that I was going to be suprising a ton of people. I got to finally see the new puppy daushand that my parents got. And let me tell you...She is the fucking cutest dog ever...besides the other daushand we already had. We had a huge cookout today and enjoyed the sunny weather. it was sooo nice to eat some good and healthy food :)I feel so fucking fat...I cannot wait to get back into going to the gym. I love to workout! Anyway...we didn't do too much all weekend...pretty much the norm. It was just a really nice weekend.
Back in NH...shit went down I guess. My brother and Dawn Marie(sister in law) had a party for her brother because it was his birthday. Duane called me and told me that my brother caught Dawn Marie making out (and other stuff...I think...I don't know everything)with one of my brother's friends who works with him and Duane. I guess my brother broke a ton of shit and was just banging shit when he caught them. I just can't believe it. I can't believe she would do that too my brother and with a fucking crackhead...(literally this guys is a crackhead). And he's disgusting...never showers a lot and it's well known that he's only ever really slept with some nasty ass fucking people. Duane said that my brother is really hurt and was crying. Everyone is pissed at Dawn Marie (including her OWN parents). Me and Duane are in so much shock and we just can't figure out why either one of them would even think about it. And I feel terrible for my brother because he has always been faithful to her and he'd never even dream of doing something like that to her. I don't know...I just don't know. I can't get over it. When I first heard it I thought Duane was lying to me. And the thing is my brother and I never really grew up together, since I lived in Ohio with my mom and he lived with my dad in NH. So we don't really talk much to each other; not because we don't like each other or anything but just because we don't really ever know what to say. Plus my brother has anxiety and depression and is just nw starting to get help so he doesn't talk much to people except about work. So I don't know what to say to him or how to even say anything. I care about him a lot and I KNOW that he cares about me alot; we just don't express those feelings. *sighs* I told Duane to watch him and make sure that he's ok and doesn't do anything stupid (like a ton of drugs or not takin his anti-depressant and doing something really stupid). So no one knows what is going to happen yet but if it really comes down to it my brother is only 23 and he is nice looking, 2 kids or not, he can find someone else easily because he's the kind of guy girls want.
I don't know when I will be able to update again...soon I hope becuase this journal is my savior, even though I have been slacking too much lately.
I came home (to ohio) for the weekend. My stepdad called me on Wednesday and asked me if I'd want to come home for the holiday weekend. I said yes of course, because I miss my family like crazy! (I seem to be so out of the ordinary...compared to others my age). So i flew here on Friday morning and I am going back tomorrow morning. That is the only reason (well not the ONLY reason) why I am updating (because my brother's house doesn't have the internet yet). Anyway, so I've had a great weekend. My coming here was a complete suprise for my mom and everyone else because my stepdad wanted it to be that way. It was exciting to know that I was going to be suprising a ton of people. I got to finally see the new puppy daushand that my parents got. And let me tell you...She is the fucking cutest dog ever...besides the other daushand we already had. We had a huge cookout today and enjoyed the sunny weather. it was sooo nice to eat some good and healthy food :)I feel so fucking fat...I cannot wait to get back into going to the gym. I love to workout! Anyway...we didn't do too much all weekend...pretty much the norm. It was just a really nice weekend.
Back in NH...shit went down I guess. My brother and Dawn Marie(sister in law) had a party for her brother because it was his birthday. Duane called me and told me that my brother caught Dawn Marie making out (and other stuff...I think...I don't know everything)with one of my brother's friends who works with him and Duane. I guess my brother broke a ton of shit and was just banging shit when he caught them. I just can't believe it. I can't believe she would do that too my brother and with a fucking crackhead...(literally this guys is a crackhead). And he's disgusting...never showers a lot and it's well known that he's only ever really slept with some nasty ass fucking people. Duane said that my brother is really hurt and was crying. Everyone is pissed at Dawn Marie (including her OWN parents). Me and Duane are in so much shock and we just can't figure out why either one of them would even think about it. And I feel terrible for my brother because he has always been faithful to her and he'd never even dream of doing something like that to her. I don't know...I just don't know. I can't get over it. When I first heard it I thought Duane was lying to me. And the thing is my brother and I never really grew up together, since I lived in Ohio with my mom and he lived with my dad in NH. So we don't really talk much to each other; not because we don't like each other or anything but just because we don't really ever know what to say. Plus my brother has anxiety and depression and is just nw starting to get help so he doesn't talk much to people except about work. So I don't know what to say to him or how to even say anything. I care about him a lot and I KNOW that he cares about me alot; we just don't express those feelings. *sighs* I told Duane to watch him and make sure that he's ok and doesn't do anything stupid (like a ton of drugs or not takin his anti-depressant and doing something really stupid). So no one knows what is going to happen yet but if it really comes down to it my brother is only 23 and he is nice looking, 2 kids or not, he can find someone else easily because he's the kind of guy girls want.
I don't know when I will be able to update again...soon I hope becuase this journal is my savior, even though I have been slacking too much lately.