pointless ranting.
yeah it's fucking late right now. i gotta paint a lot more but i've been fucking around online. I should update sometime soon I guess. let's see... what's happened lately. I started seeing a shrink (but not for long. not this one anyway), I miss home (what else is new), and.... um. my life is boring and stupid. that's about it. I don't talk to so many people i did say... like a year ago. I haven't been able to fill my calling card (because the customer service system for the card is a big stupid piece of shit), but I just sort of realized that I haven't cared really. Lately I've been feeling so miserable that i've been forced to sort of care. the only person i have been able to talk to around here is Lisa... and i'm just beginning to realize how much she pisses me off. Tonight I felt like beating the shit out of something. I'm so damn sick of my stupid life and everyone in it (not that many people). I just feel like getting drunk right now but i don't think my body likes hard liquor anymore and it takes so damn much of it to keep me drunk. i should go steal some beer tomorrow. or start a fight with a bum or something. yeah that's what i'll do. next asshole who asks me for change I'll just pop him in the fucking mug. Done and done.