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Player Information:
Name or Handle: Pixie
LJ: technobabbled
Email: technobabbledftw [at] gmail [dot] com
AIM/ MSN / Plurk name:
AIM: pixie is bloo
Plurk: technobabbled
Any current characters here?: No
Character Information:
Character Name: Simon Bellamy
Age: 19
Canon: Misfits
Appearance:
Simon's pretty short, about 5'8, and is generally pretty unnoticeable. Appearance-wise, he's kind of styled after Ian Curtis, who he probably thinks is really awesome. He likes to keep himself neat, any clothes he wears seemingly managing to stay completely uncreased and if he has buttons you can pretty much guarantee they will be done all the way up. He has dark, carefully flattened hair and big, blue eyes that probably don't help much when people are put off by his staring.
Personality:
At first glance, Simon seems creepy, weird and not at all clued up on the social norms. He finds speaking difficult, particularly with people he doesn’t know well, or in stressful situations. He has a habit of staring a bit too much and is in general a lot more neat and precise than most people his age. He’s a social outcast and has never been anything but. It’s not that he wants to be alone, it’s just hard for him to hold a conversation without branding himself a freak in the first five seconds. For obvious reasons, this isn’t particularly good for establishing positive relationships.
Simon’s never been good at making friends. Before starting Community Service it seems he never really had any he hadn’t met online. All he’s ever wanted to do is fit in, which often just leads to him looking even weirder than people already think he is. We know that he was at least friends with his next door neighbour until the start of secondary school, when he stopped speaking to him. Presumably this was in order to preserve his own reputation and not look like a freak for hanging around with Simon. Despite this, Simon keeps on trying to make amends for years, even though the bullying from his neighbour means he feels physically sick when he wakes up in the morning. It’s likely he wasn’t the only person Simon tried to make friends with, only to be shot down by over the years. It’s possibly in part because of this that Simon is unwaveringly loyal to the friends he does manage to make, regardless of the cost, or how badly they treat him.
It’s possible he’s also slightly distant from his parents, as well. He’s an adult, so it’s not as though they’re entitled to keep him at home, so he can’t have a terrible relationship with them. Particularly not since they let him stay there even after he attempts to burn their neighbours house down, which would have definitely put a lot of stress on any relationship they may have had with the neighbours. However, he doesn’t tend to talk about his parents much. The one time he does mention them is when he’s talking about his school experiences and how they’d done nothing even when they knew he was being bullied. Any time we see him at home, he’s cooped up in the privacy of his room, away from any family areas in the house. Not to mention when they do find out about their son’s invisibility in an altered timeline, they’re freaked out enough that Simon goes to stay with Nathan, despite them seeming to tolerate all his strangeness in the past. He does have a little sister who he seems fond of, even a little protective of, but she’s also not someone he mentions much.
Largely due to the trouble he has fitting in, Simon isn’t exactly the most stable of individuals. He actually is quite creepy at times, seeming to be a bit of a voyeur. Although it’s a unisex changing room, Simon takes advantage of his invisible state to watch Kelly and Alisha getting changed, and also films Sally in her sleep. At one point after drinking too much, he’s almost, but not quite brave enough to molest an unconscious Kelly. He freaks out after lifting up her skirt and leaves, but it’s still far from healthy behaviour. He also has a tendency to let his hurt and anger build up to the point he goes to extreme actions when he does snap. Arson and manslaughter are the two most notable ones. Both are severe enough that simply regretting his actions after aren’t really enough to put things right with an apology. After his attempted arson, Simon did undergo a psychiatric assessment and was presumably deemed sane enough to stand trial and dismissed with that. He doesn’t seem to have had any support or treatment after that, but he definitely could have used it. Simon seems to spend the entirety of the first series on the brink of a nervous breakdown, particularly towards the end. He starts to improve in the second series, but he remains a very intense and insecure individual.
It’s been stated that the characters powers in this series are extensions of their personalities. In Simon’s case, this is very obvious in several ways. He’s used to being ignored, much as he hates it. He’s always felt as though he’s invisible, his power is almost a mockery of this. In addition, he’s an observer. He has a very strong interest in filming and editing that reflects this. At times he can seem as though he’s permanently attached to his camera phone, at least before the death of Sally. To Simon, this was a way to make himself feel more a part of things, even if it didn’t in actuality do anything to make him any less isolated from the rest of the world. Although the abrupt end of this habit can be directly attributed to some of his footage giving away the murder of their first probation worker, this is also around the time that Simon starts properly stepping out of his shell and becoming a part of the group. Filming isn’t something he needs to do anymore, as he finally starts to feel as though he belongs within their group rather than hovering unseen from the outside.
On many occasions, he’s shown to be intelligent. Simon’s more likely than any of the others to know what’s going on, and though a lot of this seems to be picked up from fiction, some of it’s probably from his habit of watching the world around him. More often than not he’s the one who comes up with the plans that get the group out of trouble. If he wanted to, Simon could easily become a criminal mastermind. He’s planned and carried out several criminal acts to protect the others, ranging from disposing of bodies in concrete to prevent their discovery, to using their credit cards to give the impression the victims are still alive. With his mind and power combined, Simon’s very well suited to life as a criminal.
Despite this, he really just wants to be a hero. He’s voiced this desire on multiple occasions, but so far he’s neither been able to, nor been taken seriously by the rest of the young offenders. The only times Simon’s willingly committed crime (with the exception of his attempted arson) is when he’s deemed it necessary for the sake of his friends. Even then it isn’t usually something he takes much pride in. At a slightly later point than I’m taking him from, when they’re forced to steal money in order to save Kelly’s life Simon protests against the idea of them becoming successful criminals, although the robbery had been his idea. He’s uncomfortable with using violence, on one occasion even gaining the courage to demand ‘Kelly’ (actually a shapeshifter) stops, not wanting them to kill anyone else.
Eventually Simon will become far more confident, but for the time being at least he’s not really at all comfortable with himself or other people.
If you are apping a character arriving from another game: N/A
Background:
Simon had a lot of difficulty socialising as he was growing up. Usually he isolated himself, either as a result of being made fun of, or to avoid it. Much as he wanted to make friends, he found he was unable to. Nobody seemed to listen to him when he told them how people tormented him, whether they were his parents or his teachers.
Some time after he’d left school he got a text off his next door neighbour, one of his tormentors in school, asking him to meet him at a club. Thinking he wanted to apologise for the way he’d treated him in the past, Simon decided to accept his offer. After buying them both a beer, he approached him, only to find he’d accidentally text him, meaning to send it to a different Simon.
This dismissal proved to be the last straw for Simon. Angry and tired of being an outcast, Simon got very drunk. Instead of returning home, he went to his neighbour’s house. After checking to make sure no one was home he set his house alight by stuffing tissues soaked in lighter fluid through the letterbox and igniting them. Instead of leaving like he should have, Simon noticed his neighbour’s family cat trapped inside the house. Knowing the cat wasn’t the one who put him through years of torment at school, Simon panicked. It was at this point he was caught by his neighbour’s mum as he was putting out the fire by pissing through their letterbox.
He was arrested and sentenced to Community Service after spending a short time in a psychiatric unit. On his first day of Community Service he found himself caught in a freak storm, along with four of the other young offenders and their probation worker.
The next day Simon discovered the cap of the sixth young offender in their group, covered in blood. The others didn’t hear him when he tried to ask them if they’d seen him and Simon found he had the ability to become invisible, though he had no idea how he could control it.
Over the course of the day he discovered he wasn’t the only one who had changed after the storm. Kelly had gained the ability to read minds, Alisha caused uncontrollable sexual arousal through contact and Curtis could turn back time. Nathan appeared to have been unaffected, but they later discovered the storm had left him immortal. Their probation worker had also been affected, seeming to have lost his mind. They were forced to kill him in self defence after discovering the body of the other young offender stuffed into a locker.
Knowing they’d get the blame for both their deaths, they decided to keep it a secret, burying the bodies so that no one would discover what they’d done.
Simon grew close to Sally, the probation worker replacing the one they’d killed. With encouragement from his online friend, Shygirl18, Simon asked her out. They began to develop a tentative relationship, but that ended abruptly when Simon discovered she’d been engaged to their first probation worker and had been manipulating him from the start as herself and Shygirl18 in order to find evidence that he and the others had murdered her fiancé.
In a struggle to stop her from going to the police, Simon killed Sally, accidentally bashing her head off the door. He kept it from the others, hiding her body in a freezer at the community centre. He sort of became more detached from the others again after this. Particularly after he failed to save Nathan from falling off the community centre roof and dying. Although he did reach out to Kelly to let her know he'd tried to stop him falling, as well as putting together a tribute video for her with the footage he had of Nathan.
Canon point: Post-S1
If you are apping a character arriving from another game: N/A
Special Abilities:
In canon, Simon gained the power to turn invisible after being caught in a freak storm. He not only goes unseen, but is unable to be heard by others either. Anything he picks up is also affected by his power. Initially, Simon’s power only kicked in when he was feeling ignored. He’s got much more control over it than he did initially, now able to become invisible and reappear again at will. However, if he’s feeling especially ignored or unappreciated he may still become invisible against his will.
It’s been shown that his power is inverted whilst under the influence of drugs, meaning everybody notices him and sees him, also gaining a far greater sense of admiration for him. Whether his power can be affected in other ways remains to be seen.
I guess this would translate pretty well to Force Cloaking.
Sect: Civilian. I was toying with Jedi, but at this point in canon... civilian's probably a lot more fitting.
Job: I don't know yet.
Samples:
First Person:
[The camera’s turned away from the cameraman as the feed begins, focused on the exit in the interior of Stark Tower. The only thing that can be heard is someone’s breathing and heavy footsteps as the cameraman begins to follow the direction given by the sign.
The footage is shaky as he makes his way down the stairs and out of the building from the first floor.
The sound of breathing and footsteps gives way to the noise of traffic and pedestrians. The camera stays focused on the main road and pavement until one particularly tough passerby notices the camera and sticks up a finger.]
Sorry. I-I didn’t mean... [There’s some fumbling from the cameraman before the feed abruptly finishes.]
[text]
She said I could be a hero. Maybe she told you that, too.
I know how this works. In comics. Or on TV. The heroes get transported to a different dimension to save someone. Or save something. But they get separated and have to find each other.
I think that’s what’s happened to us. But we have to be careful. It might be a trap. If any of you are reading this, don’t tell anyone anything that might tell them who we are. The most important thing is we find each other, then we can decide what to do. We should use things that have happened to us to prove who we are, but only use them once or they could be used against us.
The password’s monkey slut. Tell me why we needed it and I’ll come and find you.
Third Person:
He’d thought he’d be a hero, when he first got his powers. Weeks on, he’d still yet to use them for anything good. He felt further from a hero than he had when the storm first struck. It wasn’t that he was evil. He wasn’t. He could never be evil. But he seemed to keep finding himself resorting to criminal offences, all the same. Arson. Fraud. Murder.
He hadn’t even been able to save one of the few friends he’d ever had.
The sick feeling he’d felt in the pit of his stomach as Nathan’s hand slipped from his kept coming back to haunt him. Each time he woke up. Each time he set foot in the community centre. Like he’d felt each time he faced going into school, but far, far worse.
He remembered staring down from the roof at Nathan’s body, impaled on the fence spikes below. The others were already down there. They cried over Nathan together. Simon stayed on the roof. Alone. He was always alone. He stayed there until the police arrived and took him to make a statement.
With Nathan gone, things were quiet. Simon wasn’t sure he liked it. He didn’t miss the names he’d called him, but he missed Nathan. Kelly had also been quiet since Nathan died. She’d always been nice to Simon. He wished as much for her as he did for Nathan that he hadn’t let him go. Alisha and Curtis were too wrapped up in each other to notice Simon. He was left to his own devices.
He made Nathan a video. He knew Nathan would never see it, but Kelly could. He hoped the tribute he’d made had helped in some small way, but he knew better than to think she’d be happy. He went to his funeral. Sally had never had either of those. Neither had Tony. Or Gary.
He thought of Sally as often he did Nathan. He thought of Tony and Gary, too, though not as much. He’d barely known Gary. His memories of Tony were mostly of him trying to kill them.
Sometimes he thought he wanted to forget Sally. Everything she’d done to him. Making him think she liked him. That he’d ever stand a chance with someone like her. It hurt. Enough for him to delete all the footage he’d had of her. Enough that he’d removed Shygirl18 as his friend. It wasn’t like he’d be able to speak to her again, anyway.
Yet he kept her body in the community centre. He knew he shouldn’t. He was almost certain of the way he’d get rid of her already. The longer he kept her there, the more chance there was he’d get found out. Still he kept going back to her. He spent his lunch there. Any time he found he could get away from the others. Sometimes he stayed later, keeping her body propped up in the freezer as he wondered what topping she’d have liked if she was sharing his pizza with him.
It might have been easier if the others knew, but he knew he could never tell them. Sally was his problem. His mistake. He’d killed her to protect them, not to add to their list of crimes. He’d dispose of her when he had to, or else take the blame if she was found. He knew he’d end up straight back in the psychiatric unit, with no chance of leaving this time, but he knew he wasn’t crazy.
He did things for a reason. He did it for them.
Anything Else: Oh, gosh. I've recycled parts of this app like Jolee Bindo does blue milk. Let me know if there's anything you'd rather I rewrite from scratch? My laziness got in the way of me here. Appearance is pretty much the only thing longer than a sentence I've done for this app specifically.
Name or Handle: Pixie
LJ: technobabbled
Email: technobabbledftw [at] gmail [dot] com
AIM/ MSN / Plurk name:
AIM: pixie is bloo
Plurk: technobabbled
Any current characters here?: No
Character Information:
Character Name: Simon Bellamy
Age: 19
Canon: Misfits
Appearance:
Simon's pretty short, about 5'8, and is generally pretty unnoticeable. Appearance-wise, he's kind of styled after Ian Curtis, who he probably thinks is really awesome. He likes to keep himself neat, any clothes he wears seemingly managing to stay completely uncreased and if he has buttons you can pretty much guarantee they will be done all the way up. He has dark, carefully flattened hair and big, blue eyes that probably don't help much when people are put off by his staring.
Personality:
At first glance, Simon seems creepy, weird and not at all clued up on the social norms. He finds speaking difficult, particularly with people he doesn’t know well, or in stressful situations. He has a habit of staring a bit too much and is in general a lot more neat and precise than most people his age. He’s a social outcast and has never been anything but. It’s not that he wants to be alone, it’s just hard for him to hold a conversation without branding himself a freak in the first five seconds. For obvious reasons, this isn’t particularly good for establishing positive relationships.
Simon’s never been good at making friends. Before starting Community Service it seems he never really had any he hadn’t met online. All he’s ever wanted to do is fit in, which often just leads to him looking even weirder than people already think he is. We know that he was at least friends with his next door neighbour until the start of secondary school, when he stopped speaking to him. Presumably this was in order to preserve his own reputation and not look like a freak for hanging around with Simon. Despite this, Simon keeps on trying to make amends for years, even though the bullying from his neighbour means he feels physically sick when he wakes up in the morning. It’s likely he wasn’t the only person Simon tried to make friends with, only to be shot down by over the years. It’s possibly in part because of this that Simon is unwaveringly loyal to the friends he does manage to make, regardless of the cost, or how badly they treat him.
It’s possible he’s also slightly distant from his parents, as well. He’s an adult, so it’s not as though they’re entitled to keep him at home, so he can’t have a terrible relationship with them. Particularly not since they let him stay there even after he attempts to burn their neighbours house down, which would have definitely put a lot of stress on any relationship they may have had with the neighbours. However, he doesn’t tend to talk about his parents much. The one time he does mention them is when he’s talking about his school experiences and how they’d done nothing even when they knew he was being bullied. Any time we see him at home, he’s cooped up in the privacy of his room, away from any family areas in the house. Not to mention when they do find out about their son’s invisibility in an altered timeline, they’re freaked out enough that Simon goes to stay with Nathan, despite them seeming to tolerate all his strangeness in the past. He does have a little sister who he seems fond of, even a little protective of, but she’s also not someone he mentions much.
Largely due to the trouble he has fitting in, Simon isn’t exactly the most stable of individuals. He actually is quite creepy at times, seeming to be a bit of a voyeur. Although it’s a unisex changing room, Simon takes advantage of his invisible state to watch Kelly and Alisha getting changed, and also films Sally in her sleep. At one point after drinking too much, he’s almost, but not quite brave enough to molest an unconscious Kelly. He freaks out after lifting up her skirt and leaves, but it’s still far from healthy behaviour. He also has a tendency to let his hurt and anger build up to the point he goes to extreme actions when he does snap. Arson and manslaughter are the two most notable ones. Both are severe enough that simply regretting his actions after aren’t really enough to put things right with an apology. After his attempted arson, Simon did undergo a psychiatric assessment and was presumably deemed sane enough to stand trial and dismissed with that. He doesn’t seem to have had any support or treatment after that, but he definitely could have used it. Simon seems to spend the entirety of the first series on the brink of a nervous breakdown, particularly towards the end. He starts to improve in the second series, but he remains a very intense and insecure individual.
It’s been stated that the characters powers in this series are extensions of their personalities. In Simon’s case, this is very obvious in several ways. He’s used to being ignored, much as he hates it. He’s always felt as though he’s invisible, his power is almost a mockery of this. In addition, he’s an observer. He has a very strong interest in filming and editing that reflects this. At times he can seem as though he’s permanently attached to his camera phone, at least before the death of Sally. To Simon, this was a way to make himself feel more a part of things, even if it didn’t in actuality do anything to make him any less isolated from the rest of the world. Although the abrupt end of this habit can be directly attributed to some of his footage giving away the murder of their first probation worker, this is also around the time that Simon starts properly stepping out of his shell and becoming a part of the group. Filming isn’t something he needs to do anymore, as he finally starts to feel as though he belongs within their group rather than hovering unseen from the outside.
On many occasions, he’s shown to be intelligent. Simon’s more likely than any of the others to know what’s going on, and though a lot of this seems to be picked up from fiction, some of it’s probably from his habit of watching the world around him. More often than not he’s the one who comes up with the plans that get the group out of trouble. If he wanted to, Simon could easily become a criminal mastermind. He’s planned and carried out several criminal acts to protect the others, ranging from disposing of bodies in concrete to prevent their discovery, to using their credit cards to give the impression the victims are still alive. With his mind and power combined, Simon’s very well suited to life as a criminal.
Despite this, he really just wants to be a hero. He’s voiced this desire on multiple occasions, but so far he’s neither been able to, nor been taken seriously by the rest of the young offenders. The only times Simon’s willingly committed crime (with the exception of his attempted arson) is when he’s deemed it necessary for the sake of his friends. Even then it isn’t usually something he takes much pride in. At a slightly later point than I’m taking him from, when they’re forced to steal money in order to save Kelly’s life Simon protests against the idea of them becoming successful criminals, although the robbery had been his idea. He’s uncomfortable with using violence, on one occasion even gaining the courage to demand ‘Kelly’ (actually a shapeshifter) stops, not wanting them to kill anyone else.
Eventually Simon will become far more confident, but for the time being at least he’s not really at all comfortable with himself or other people.
If you are apping a character arriving from another game: N/A
Background:
Simon had a lot of difficulty socialising as he was growing up. Usually he isolated himself, either as a result of being made fun of, or to avoid it. Much as he wanted to make friends, he found he was unable to. Nobody seemed to listen to him when he told them how people tormented him, whether they were his parents or his teachers.
Some time after he’d left school he got a text off his next door neighbour, one of his tormentors in school, asking him to meet him at a club. Thinking he wanted to apologise for the way he’d treated him in the past, Simon decided to accept his offer. After buying them both a beer, he approached him, only to find he’d accidentally text him, meaning to send it to a different Simon.
This dismissal proved to be the last straw for Simon. Angry and tired of being an outcast, Simon got very drunk. Instead of returning home, he went to his neighbour’s house. After checking to make sure no one was home he set his house alight by stuffing tissues soaked in lighter fluid through the letterbox and igniting them. Instead of leaving like he should have, Simon noticed his neighbour’s family cat trapped inside the house. Knowing the cat wasn’t the one who put him through years of torment at school, Simon panicked. It was at this point he was caught by his neighbour’s mum as he was putting out the fire by pissing through their letterbox.
He was arrested and sentenced to Community Service after spending a short time in a psychiatric unit. On his first day of Community Service he found himself caught in a freak storm, along with four of the other young offenders and their probation worker.
The next day Simon discovered the cap of the sixth young offender in their group, covered in blood. The others didn’t hear him when he tried to ask them if they’d seen him and Simon found he had the ability to become invisible, though he had no idea how he could control it.
Over the course of the day he discovered he wasn’t the only one who had changed after the storm. Kelly had gained the ability to read minds, Alisha caused uncontrollable sexual arousal through contact and Curtis could turn back time. Nathan appeared to have been unaffected, but they later discovered the storm had left him immortal. Their probation worker had also been affected, seeming to have lost his mind. They were forced to kill him in self defence after discovering the body of the other young offender stuffed into a locker.
Knowing they’d get the blame for both their deaths, they decided to keep it a secret, burying the bodies so that no one would discover what they’d done.
Simon grew close to Sally, the probation worker replacing the one they’d killed. With encouragement from his online friend, Shygirl18, Simon asked her out. They began to develop a tentative relationship, but that ended abruptly when Simon discovered she’d been engaged to their first probation worker and had been manipulating him from the start as herself and Shygirl18 in order to find evidence that he and the others had murdered her fiancé.
In a struggle to stop her from going to the police, Simon killed Sally, accidentally bashing her head off the door. He kept it from the others, hiding her body in a freezer at the community centre. He sort of became more detached from the others again after this. Particularly after he failed to save Nathan from falling off the community centre roof and dying. Although he did reach out to Kelly to let her know he'd tried to stop him falling, as well as putting together a tribute video for her with the footage he had of Nathan.
Canon point: Post-S1
If you are apping a character arriving from another game: N/A
Special Abilities:
In canon, Simon gained the power to turn invisible after being caught in a freak storm. He not only goes unseen, but is unable to be heard by others either. Anything he picks up is also affected by his power. Initially, Simon’s power only kicked in when he was feeling ignored. He’s got much more control over it than he did initially, now able to become invisible and reappear again at will. However, if he’s feeling especially ignored or unappreciated he may still become invisible against his will.
It’s been shown that his power is inverted whilst under the influence of drugs, meaning everybody notices him and sees him, also gaining a far greater sense of admiration for him. Whether his power can be affected in other ways remains to be seen.
I guess this would translate pretty well to Force Cloaking.
Sect: Civilian. I was toying with Jedi, but at this point in canon... civilian's probably a lot more fitting.
Job: I don't know yet.
Samples:
First Person:
[The camera’s turned away from the cameraman as the feed begins, focused on the exit in the interior of Stark Tower. The only thing that can be heard is someone’s breathing and heavy footsteps as the cameraman begins to follow the direction given by the sign.
The footage is shaky as he makes his way down the stairs and out of the building from the first floor.
The sound of breathing and footsteps gives way to the noise of traffic and pedestrians. The camera stays focused on the main road and pavement until one particularly tough passerby notices the camera and sticks up a finger.]
Sorry. I-I didn’t mean... [There’s some fumbling from the cameraman before the feed abruptly finishes.]
[text]
She said I could be a hero. Maybe she told you that, too.
I know how this works. In comics. Or on TV. The heroes get transported to a different dimension to save someone. Or save something. But they get separated and have to find each other.
I think that’s what’s happened to us. But we have to be careful. It might be a trap. If any of you are reading this, don’t tell anyone anything that might tell them who we are. The most important thing is we find each other, then we can decide what to do. We should use things that have happened to us to prove who we are, but only use them once or they could be used against us.
The password’s monkey slut. Tell me why we needed it and I’ll come and find you.
Third Person:
He’d thought he’d be a hero, when he first got his powers. Weeks on, he’d still yet to use them for anything good. He felt further from a hero than he had when the storm first struck. It wasn’t that he was evil. He wasn’t. He could never be evil. But he seemed to keep finding himself resorting to criminal offences, all the same. Arson. Fraud. Murder.
He hadn’t even been able to save one of the few friends he’d ever had.
The sick feeling he’d felt in the pit of his stomach as Nathan’s hand slipped from his kept coming back to haunt him. Each time he woke up. Each time he set foot in the community centre. Like he’d felt each time he faced going into school, but far, far worse.
He remembered staring down from the roof at Nathan’s body, impaled on the fence spikes below. The others were already down there. They cried over Nathan together. Simon stayed on the roof. Alone. He was always alone. He stayed there until the police arrived and took him to make a statement.
With Nathan gone, things were quiet. Simon wasn’t sure he liked it. He didn’t miss the names he’d called him, but he missed Nathan. Kelly had also been quiet since Nathan died. She’d always been nice to Simon. He wished as much for her as he did for Nathan that he hadn’t let him go. Alisha and Curtis were too wrapped up in each other to notice Simon. He was left to his own devices.
He made Nathan a video. He knew Nathan would never see it, but Kelly could. He hoped the tribute he’d made had helped in some small way, but he knew better than to think she’d be happy. He went to his funeral. Sally had never had either of those. Neither had Tony. Or Gary.
He thought of Sally as often he did Nathan. He thought of Tony and Gary, too, though not as much. He’d barely known Gary. His memories of Tony were mostly of him trying to kill them.
Sometimes he thought he wanted to forget Sally. Everything she’d done to him. Making him think she liked him. That he’d ever stand a chance with someone like her. It hurt. Enough for him to delete all the footage he’d had of her. Enough that he’d removed Shygirl18 as his friend. It wasn’t like he’d be able to speak to her again, anyway.
Yet he kept her body in the community centre. He knew he shouldn’t. He was almost certain of the way he’d get rid of her already. The longer he kept her there, the more chance there was he’d get found out. Still he kept going back to her. He spent his lunch there. Any time he found he could get away from the others. Sometimes he stayed later, keeping her body propped up in the freezer as he wondered what topping she’d have liked if she was sharing his pizza with him.
It might have been easier if the others knew, but he knew he could never tell them. Sally was his problem. His mistake. He’d killed her to protect them, not to add to their list of crimes. He’d dispose of her when he had to, or else take the blame if she was found. He knew he’d end up straight back in the psychiatric unit, with no chance of leaving this time, but he knew he wasn’t crazy.
He did things for a reason. He did it for them.
Anything Else: Oh, gosh. I've recycled parts of this app like Jolee Bindo does blue milk. Let me know if there's anything you'd rather I rewrite from scratch? My laziness got in the way of me here. Appearance is pretty much the only thing longer than a sentence I've done for this app specifically.