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sometimes I wonder if I went away from the people who influence me for a week or so, how different I would feel. If I would finally understand what I want for myself. All my life I have made decisions based off what the people around me tell me to do, and I think it has all finaly come back to smack me in the face. Maybe I will take a week away from those people and see how I feel. See if I regret as many things as I think I do. Reaizing my life is controled by those around me kind of sucks, I feel like I have no idea who I am or even less of an idea about what I want then I had before. ugh hfuksdjfhdkujfhbjksm
The more I think about it the more I miss like 2 years ago. Things were simple. I didn't feel like a failure like I do now. I don't know how to explain the way I'm feeling to anyone, which is worse. No on would understand anyways cause I put myself in the worst situations. But I just wish these feelings would go away so I could feel at peace. I hate when things change so much, and the one thing you would give anything in the world for....is for things to be the way they were before they changed. Before that person changed.
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I'm confused right now. And want to get away!
The more I think about it the more I miss like 2 years ago. Things were simple. I didn't feel like a failure like I do now. I don't know how to explain the way I'm feeling to anyone, which is worse. No on would understand anyways cause I put myself in the worst situations. But I just wish these feelings would go away so I could feel at peace. I hate when things change so much, and the one thing you would give anything in the world for....is for things to be the way they were before they changed. Before that person changed.
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I'm confused right now. And want to get away!