I think I just want to be shaken
sitting here, barely awake
not only on the surf
but deep inside me too
I feel a little anxious of the steps I'm bout to take
hoping they'll bring a surge of life, to this heart that beets so faint
Maybe somewhere where longing was lost
Where fingers were stripped of feeling
and motions became monotonous
maybe somewhere along the way Ill find it again
and it'll bring me to life
shake me till I wake
hold me so tight that my pulse will rush back again
Maybe sometime in the middle of this life
between the alarms, the medications, the passing friendships, fading faces,
and driving races to save a half a minute,
Ill be reminded of what is really important
Ill awake and find you with me,
find You holding me,
stroking my face,
out of this coma,
saying,
"It'll be alright, I'm here, I love you, I'm with you, It'll be alright."
And in that moment, Ill be complete,
Ill be whole,
and I wont want to go back to the lazy living,
and walking through trampled daisys and droopy pansies wont be enough
and Ill realize the beauty all around,
and Ill come running to You,
to safety, to beauty, to peace,
to reality.
~I know this is dramatic, and it may not be precisely how I feel, but sometimes, I just really feel like this life is sooo dull, so repetative, and I just want to shake my self and scream, and kick and break free of this pressure that says, "this is all life can be".
Even me, a Christian, a passionate lover of God, gets this urge to express this unknown longing that there is more to life. Even the daily life of loving, needs a jolt, and needs to be made real. Not just once in a while, but daily, momently for that matter... This is real! He is real! There IS more... but when will i be awake enough to see it, experience it, feel it engulf me sooo completely, that there will be no turning back? I want it to be NOW!
I know i can only find this in Your presence... So Lord, my prayer is, more, I want More~!!!
not only on the surf
but deep inside me too
I feel a little anxious of the steps I'm bout to take
hoping they'll bring a surge of life, to this heart that beets so faint
Maybe somewhere where longing was lost
Where fingers were stripped of feeling
and motions became monotonous
maybe somewhere along the way Ill find it again
and it'll bring me to life
shake me till I wake
hold me so tight that my pulse will rush back again
Maybe sometime in the middle of this life
between the alarms, the medications, the passing friendships, fading faces,
and driving races to save a half a minute,
Ill be reminded of what is really important
Ill awake and find you with me,
find You holding me,
stroking my face,
out of this coma,
saying,
"It'll be alright, I'm here, I love you, I'm with you, It'll be alright."
And in that moment, Ill be complete,
Ill be whole,
and I wont want to go back to the lazy living,
and walking through trampled daisys and droopy pansies wont be enough
and Ill realize the beauty all around,
and Ill come running to You,
to safety, to beauty, to peace,
to reality.
~I know this is dramatic, and it may not be precisely how I feel, but sometimes, I just really feel like this life is sooo dull, so repetative, and I just want to shake my self and scream, and kick and break free of this pressure that says, "this is all life can be".
Even me, a Christian, a passionate lover of God, gets this urge to express this unknown longing that there is more to life. Even the daily life of loving, needs a jolt, and needs to be made real. Not just once in a while, but daily, momently for that matter... This is real! He is real! There IS more... but when will i be awake enough to see it, experience it, feel it engulf me sooo completely, that there will be no turning back? I want it to be NOW!
I know i can only find this in Your presence... So Lord, my prayer is, more, I want More~!!!