my birthday. i miss you.
funny that today of all days... i choose to get sappy. haha
it is my 18th birthday.
maybe that is why i want my daddy now.
"Do you think he is looking down tonight?
do you think he is wishing he were here?
do you think he knows how much i miss him?
how much i want him to hug me today?
it is simple child's dreams, of her daddy's arms
waiting patiently for him to sweep her away
watching time past
watching those she disappoints
she thought you were one of them too, for so long
when she heard the words, "it wasnt you"
she had to learn to start over, start anew
feeling rather broken, when will she be right again?
she looks to Him, to make her whole again
that is the reason why she waits to find someone see that truth that defined her
see how much You mean to her
wishing you were here
wishing you would hold me
maybe things would be different
but learning to be pleased with Him
He took unworthy, and is making her beautiful tonite"
-my profile
...
i think about the times we missed,
those daddy kisses,
the time i should have spent on your knee.
i looked at those pictures
and i saw you holding her.
i saw the love in your eyes,
not so many of me and you though.
mommy says i made you angry
i used to wish you would come back and i would obey you.
i was only three.
but if you were here, i would have made you crazy.
she is so strong, i only hope i can be half the woman she is.
i think of all the times we went through.
the nights where i cried and cried, just to have you near.
the bear she gave me, told me it was from you, the days after you had died
i still have him so ragged, worn, so loved.
the words death fall harsh on my mind.
i have known it for so long, and still ache when i let myself feel it.
i hardly ever let myself feel it.
i know God has a plan, i trust fully in Him.
if you were here, i might not have had to do that so much.
I do wish though from time to time, that you would put your arms around me, and tell me from the very pit of you, that i am your beautiful little girl, and that you are so proud of me, that you will never give up on me, that you love me with all that you have.
I want to make you proud, and i hope you see me tonight,
i hope you are celebrating with my other Daddy, i hope yall are sending your love.
Ill save you a piece of cake, and let Him tell me I am beautiful for you.
I havent felt that in so long, I really want you here.
I want you to tell her how special she is, how she is the light in my world, how you love her, and have always been in love with her, how you are proud of her too.
I know she needs to hear she is beautiful to you, and i think that you are the only one who can reach her. Tell Him to say it to her, to break through to her. I will miss her so much next year. She has been my constant friend, my "guiding light", my hero. I look up to her so much, and have so far to go, to be half the woman she is.
But she has made me, you have made me. I carry yall with me. And He will be by my side forever. For that i can count on. I will NEVER be alone. I have to learn to hear Him say that, and not just hearing her voice. I am so proud of what she has done. Love on her for me, for you, and for HIM. thanks.
Your Youngest Daughter,
Angela Michelle Rahn.
it is my 18th birthday.
maybe that is why i want my daddy now.
"Do you think he is looking down tonight?
do you think he is wishing he were here?
do you think he knows how much i miss him?
how much i want him to hug me today?
it is simple child's dreams, of her daddy's arms
waiting patiently for him to sweep her away
watching time past
watching those she disappoints
she thought you were one of them too, for so long
when she heard the words, "it wasnt you"
she had to learn to start over, start anew
feeling rather broken, when will she be right again?
she looks to Him, to make her whole again
that is the reason why she waits to find someone see that truth that defined her
see how much You mean to her
wishing you were here
wishing you would hold me
maybe things would be different
but learning to be pleased with Him
He took unworthy, and is making her beautiful tonite"
-my profile
...
i think about the times we missed,
those daddy kisses,
the time i should have spent on your knee.
i looked at those pictures
and i saw you holding her.
i saw the love in your eyes,
not so many of me and you though.
mommy says i made you angry
i used to wish you would come back and i would obey you.
i was only three.
but if you were here, i would have made you crazy.
she is so strong, i only hope i can be half the woman she is.
i think of all the times we went through.
the nights where i cried and cried, just to have you near.
the bear she gave me, told me it was from you, the days after you had died
i still have him so ragged, worn, so loved.
the words death fall harsh on my mind.
i have known it for so long, and still ache when i let myself feel it.
i hardly ever let myself feel it.
i know God has a plan, i trust fully in Him.
if you were here, i might not have had to do that so much.
I do wish though from time to time, that you would put your arms around me, and tell me from the very pit of you, that i am your beautiful little girl, and that you are so proud of me, that you will never give up on me, that you love me with all that you have.
I want to make you proud, and i hope you see me tonight,
i hope you are celebrating with my other Daddy, i hope yall are sending your love.
Ill save you a piece of cake, and let Him tell me I am beautiful for you.
I havent felt that in so long, I really want you here.
I want you to tell her how special she is, how she is the light in my world, how you love her, and have always been in love with her, how you are proud of her too.
I know she needs to hear she is beautiful to you, and i think that you are the only one who can reach her. Tell Him to say it to her, to break through to her. I will miss her so much next year. She has been my constant friend, my "guiding light", my hero. I look up to her so much, and have so far to go, to be half the woman she is.
But she has made me, you have made me. I carry yall with me. And He will be by my side forever. For that i can count on. I will NEVER be alone. I have to learn to hear Him say that, and not just hearing her voice. I am so proud of what she has done. Love on her for me, for you, and for HIM. thanks.
Your Youngest Daughter,
Angela Michelle Rahn.