I lost my way....
their is alot that i just cant hold in any more
- im failin lots of my classes even before i missed school so im most likely gunna be stuck in my house for the rest of my life.
- being grounded sux and it hasnt even been a week till sat. which sux
- i have to go to hang w/ little kids tom. and im just not in the mood. im depressed and in a bitchy mood and that just doesnt help but i better make the best of it so my life is gunna go back really slow
- im really sick of ppl telling me that i have to quit drinkin. u cant just stop drinkin just like smoking pot and cigs so just drop it. but u should know im not gunna drink till new years. that is my goal.
- having too many guy probs. i like too many guys and now that im grounded its all fallin apart its so guy and 1 guy isnt even talkin to me. and i guess i feel too nosy if i keep tryin to get his attention so ill just let that cool down for awhile and start driving and getting things better. i think once i get my license i think ill talk to my parents and get them to let me go to the library so i can consenstrate better (srry about my spellin)
- still feeling pretty sick which sux!!
- well i never really told this in any of my journals or anything but ive lost 13lbs and since i was sick mon and tues i gained 5lbs in 3 days which really sux but w/e ill loose more again soon when i start feeling better.
- i really just wanna fix all my problems and i cant even fix any and i have nothing to look forward to really cuz family, friends, school, boys problems are all happening at once and i cant handle it. it sux!!! like i use to just have half of those problems but i have every single 1 so idk what to do and im lost and confused. so like in my subject things
life just really sux right now!!
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
~Krysta