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This is all really stupid. He wanted to have sex without a condom. We were both tested when we started out then again later on, so we're not worried about STDs, but I don't want to be a mom. Not now, not later. I can't take care of myself, and I don't want to be the reason for everything wrong with someone else who didn't volunteer for the position. This has happened twice. The first time, I didn't ask, I just assumed. Then I figured it out and had a panic attack. I do have backup stuff, in case an accident happens, but it's meant for if your condom slips or breaks, not your jackass boyfriend didn't want to put one on.
Then yesterday I thought he would come down when I got off work and we'd hang before he had to go, that way we'd see eachother at least once this week. Instead he slept. And I stayed down in Chehalis in my brand new red underwear. J. A. C. K. A. S. S. He was at work when he called and got a little busy so he had to go but was gonna call back. An hour later he hadn't called back. I went to bed. He called at ten this morning with horrible reception, the call lasted maybe a minute before it cut off.
He wrote me an e-mail. He was drunk, he loves me, we have amazing sex.
Whatever.
Then yesterday I thought he would come down when I got off work and we'd hang before he had to go, that way we'd see eachother at least once this week. Instead he slept. And I stayed down in Chehalis in my brand new red underwear. J. A. C. K. A. S. S. He was at work when he called and got a little busy so he had to go but was gonna call back. An hour later he hadn't called back. I went to bed. He called at ten this morning with horrible reception, the call lasted maybe a minute before it cut off.
He wrote me an e-mail. He was drunk, he loves me, we have amazing sex.
Whatever.