[Filtered] Regret and sorrow.
I am not on a steady power supply. As such, I will make this brief.
I have not been in touch with most of human society for the past few weeks, as my Project has led me to the deepest nexi of power on this planet, and I have been bargaining heavily with beings of old who are loathe to relinquish their grasp on the energies they have claimed for themselves. It is only recently that I have been able to read through my "friends list", and discover the situation I have inadvertantly created by my very existence.
I must add that I have never been the best judge of the more human side of events, as have been noted by my past actions. To me, what work I am engaged in has always been my first priority, for there have been more than one occasion when I have had to choose between those close to me, and the entire world.
This, I am afraid, is one such occasion.
I will endeavour to repair whatever damage I have already done, and mitigate any further wounds that my actions will cause. For I am certain that I will act in ways that may hurt and confuse those whose lives I have touched, and there is simply no way around this that I can see at this time. The Project is, indeed, the most important work that I have ever done in my entire existence, and I must succeed, for reasons that-
We are all but creations of an unknown power, and we change masters as often as we change philosophies. Sometimes the servant may turn into the master, and the master nothing more than a tool to be used; to what end, we cannot know.
I must be careful. If there is even the slightest hint of hesitation in my magic, the consequences would be dire. And if it knows my true intentions... but I cannot know if I am performing the duty it assigned me to anyway. A self-fulfilling prophecy, perhaps, or plans within plans within plans.
I cannot reveal my final goal, or the purpose of the Project. This is not a matter of trust: the very nature of my plans preclude any revelations until the very end. Any interference, even unintentional, would result in everything being for naught, or worse.
But I will try to heal what rifts have formed between myself and others. Whether I succeed or fail in this aspect may be secondary to the Project, but it is...
It may not be the right thing to do, in the grand scheme of things, but it is the human thing to do.
Yue, if you are reading this, please contact me here. I do not know why you have chosen to distance yourself from this world, but those whom you love, and who love you in return...
I am not your master anymore. This is a fact that cannot be changed, and cannot be denied. But if you would, I will still be your friend.
I did not choose this path. I admit that freely. For all that I pretend to be a master of destiny, I am as much a victim of fate as anyone else. There may be a better way, would there be a better way, I know not; but this is the road that we are on, and we can do nothing but walk it to the end, one step at a time.
I have not been in touch with most of human society for the past few weeks, as my Project has led me to the deepest nexi of power on this planet, and I have been bargaining heavily with beings of old who are loathe to relinquish their grasp on the energies they have claimed for themselves. It is only recently that I have been able to read through my "friends list", and discover the situation I have inadvertantly created by my very existence.
I must add that I have never been the best judge of the more human side of events, as have been noted by my past actions. To me, what work I am engaged in has always been my first priority, for there have been more than one occasion when I have had to choose between those close to me, and the entire world.
This, I am afraid, is one such occasion.
I will endeavour to repair whatever damage I have already done, and mitigate any further wounds that my actions will cause. For I am certain that I will act in ways that may hurt and confuse those whose lives I have touched, and there is simply no way around this that I can see at this time. The Project is, indeed, the most important work that I have ever done in my entire existence, and I must succeed, for reasons that-
We are all but creations of an unknown power, and we change masters as often as we change philosophies. Sometimes the servant may turn into the master, and the master nothing more than a tool to be used; to what end, we cannot know.
I must be careful. If there is even the slightest hint of hesitation in my magic, the consequences would be dire. And if it knows my true intentions... but I cannot know if I am performing the duty it assigned me to anyway. A self-fulfilling prophecy, perhaps, or plans within plans within plans.
I cannot reveal my final goal, or the purpose of the Project. This is not a matter of trust: the very nature of my plans preclude any revelations until the very end. Any interference, even unintentional, would result in everything being for naught, or worse.
But I will try to heal what rifts have formed between myself and others. Whether I succeed or fail in this aspect may be secondary to the Project, but it is...
It may not be the right thing to do, in the grand scheme of things, but it is the human thing to do.
Yue, if you are reading this, please contact me here. I do not know why you have chosen to distance yourself from this world, but those whom you love, and who love you in return...
I am not your master anymore. This is a fact that cannot be changed, and cannot be denied. But if you would, I will still be your friend.
I did not choose this path. I admit that freely. For all that I pretend to be a master of destiny, I am as much a victim of fate as anyone else. There may be a better way, would there be a better way, I know not; but this is the road that we are on, and we can do nothing but walk it to the end, one step at a time.