and the cycle continues.

[invincable]

i'm floating again, numb even.
i'm still working all of the time and
nothing excites me and i'm spending a lot of time alone.
i have a christmas tree that still needs to be decorated. and i wish i had someone who'd help.
i'm trying to do all that i can as much as i can and feeling very under-appreciated. except that i/everything i do was never really appreciated in the first place so
i'm sick of meaningless sex and i'm aching for something real.

i'll be here when you're ready.

but until then i'll just stay locked up inside of my head
i'm just sick of selfish people.