my heart is killing me.

[invertsugar]

Laying next to Thao on her bed...
she is just a few moments away from getting a kiss from me.
she is even closer to getting a hug and my warmth covering her.

Dread. Fear. It's harder...
because I actually care about her..
I leave, doing nothing.
terrified.

my heart wracking in pain.
holding tears back.
what the fucking hell.