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the part of me that forsakes everything about the life i've been living for the past 12 years
It is pulling me more and more.
Lux Aeterna
Listening to it turns me onto my old life.
To what I loved being.
and so I am torn.
Soon i'll make a decision about where i'm going and what i'm doing.
But why did we ever stop it?
The continuation could have provided a lot of happiness.
Just disharmony and chaos. Apathy; remorseless. As I see life in two frames.
One of peace harmony and triviality of my own existence.
A life where nothing is nothing and everything is nothing my friends.
Unstoppable I party, I drink, I be and I change. Passing out exhausted.
Waking in the morning and I wonder who I am?
Then I see things and violent situations. I feel the fear mount inside of me.
As I see what I once did so long ago embodied in everyone else.
The horrific visage of myself from long ago transposed on those around me.
So cold calloused and hateful.
Now a days I feel compelled to protect those around me. For some reason.
That's not how it always was.
It is pulling me more and more.
Lux Aeterna
Listening to it turns me onto my old life.
To what I loved being.
and so I am torn.
Soon i'll make a decision about where i'm going and what i'm doing.
But why did we ever stop it?
The continuation could have provided a lot of happiness.
Just disharmony and chaos. Apathy; remorseless. As I see life in two frames.
One of peace harmony and triviality of my own existence.
A life where nothing is nothing and everything is nothing my friends.
Unstoppable I party, I drink, I be and I change. Passing out exhausted.
Waking in the morning and I wonder who I am?
Then I see things and violent situations. I feel the fear mount inside of me.
As I see what I once did so long ago embodied in everyone else.
The horrific visage of myself from long ago transposed on those around me.
So cold calloused and hateful.
Now a days I feel compelled to protect those around me. For some reason.
That's not how it always was.