generic pep talks
I hate how people, when they're worried about something, they don't tell me this straight up. There is some talk within one another in a group before someone musters us the courage and has a generic pep talk:
"Don't do things for other people...you gotta remember you have to try to do things for yourself, in your own best interests."
Last night my aunt was talking to me about her experiences in Europe. She straightened up and followed this dream to go to one of the most prestigious universities in France at the age of 24. It took her a few years to figure out some stuff on her own. Today she produces commercials and films. She told me how going to college immediately after HS, althought the norm, is not always the path people should follow. There is a choice and you should only follow that whenever you're ready and for whatever you want to do. I can see that and I've always known that it is available; I just never thought that I would be someone to consider it. I remember back in the day when my sister was a Junior/Senior...she looked so confident. Colleges saught after her and it was like everything was a breeze. I wish I had some of that confidence and self assurance right now. For example, if you ask me what I want to major in, which is what a lot of adults ask me, I won't be able to come up with a sufficient answer. Or I'll just response just to answer them so they'd leave me alone. If you ask me what colleges I want to go look into, I'm absolutely clueless. I like to be on the lookout, to plan ahead, to be prepared. But I'm not prepared in this at all. All I know is that, one reason why I don't want to go to UMCP is because EVERYONE wants to go there. It's the norm. even the guidance counselors at school, who do jack in advising kids, just tell kids "oh it's good enough to go to college park." bullshit. For example, young got like 1300 or 1400 on her psats and her counselor was like, "Oh that's great! You can definitely get into college park!" That was a slap in the face and I can't believe her GC said that...college park is not worthy to have her. She's ivy league material... I also want to go somewhere better than college park. I don't want to just aim for that, even though it's really going to be lucky if I even get accepted in there.
I hate how the fact that about 50% of my grade will apply there (the other 50% aims for MC, a community collage grr). I hate how the fact that it's everyone's number one choice. WHY don't people try other schools to go further? and I hate how it would mean staying in maryland, which would be boring.
Right now, I'm old enough to legally drive. In two years, I can vote or join the army. And in five years I can legally drink. But I feel like I can't stop the pace of getting older. Sometimes there are days when I just want hours to not go by so quickly.... It's like...as you get older, you feel like the days are shorter. Lounging around doing nothing is a waste of time and not possible anymore because there are now priorities you are obliged to do. Hours pass by like they're just a few minutes. Time seems to generally fly by faster.
"Don't do things for other people...you gotta remember you have to try to do things for yourself, in your own best interests."
Last night my aunt was talking to me about her experiences in Europe. She straightened up and followed this dream to go to one of the most prestigious universities in France at the age of 24. It took her a few years to figure out some stuff on her own. Today she produces commercials and films. She told me how going to college immediately after HS, althought the norm, is not always the path people should follow. There is a choice and you should only follow that whenever you're ready and for whatever you want to do. I can see that and I've always known that it is available; I just never thought that I would be someone to consider it. I remember back in the day when my sister was a Junior/Senior...she looked so confident. Colleges saught after her and it was like everything was a breeze. I wish I had some of that confidence and self assurance right now. For example, if you ask me what I want to major in, which is what a lot of adults ask me, I won't be able to come up with a sufficient answer. Or I'll just response just to answer them so they'd leave me alone. If you ask me what colleges I want to go look into, I'm absolutely clueless. I like to be on the lookout, to plan ahead, to be prepared. But I'm not prepared in this at all. All I know is that, one reason why I don't want to go to UMCP is because EVERYONE wants to go there. It's the norm. even the guidance counselors at school, who do jack in advising kids, just tell kids "oh it's good enough to go to college park." bullshit. For example, young got like 1300 or 1400 on her psats and her counselor was like, "Oh that's great! You can definitely get into college park!" That was a slap in the face and I can't believe her GC said that...college park is not worthy to have her. She's ivy league material... I also want to go somewhere better than college park. I don't want to just aim for that, even though it's really going to be lucky if I even get accepted in there.
I hate how the fact that about 50% of my grade will apply there (the other 50% aims for MC, a community collage grr). I hate how the fact that it's everyone's number one choice. WHY don't people try other schools to go further? and I hate how it would mean staying in maryland, which would be boring.
Right now, I'm old enough to legally drive. In two years, I can vote or join the army. And in five years I can legally drink. But I feel like I can't stop the pace of getting older. Sometimes there are days when I just want hours to not go by so quickly.... It's like...as you get older, you feel like the days are shorter. Lounging around doing nothing is a waste of time and not possible anymore because there are now priorities you are obliged to do. Hours pass by like they're just a few minutes. Time seems to generally fly by faster.