I'm naturally untrusting and suspicious
So there I was, laying in bed. Attempting to sleep or at least some half assed effort to. And I turn on the TV like every other red blooded American does when bored. Have someone else entertain you, tell you that you are entertained by the noisy box treatening to provoke a seizure. But not normal to most people I turn on IFC, cause I belive myself to be some sort of hip-anti establishmentarian. That in itself is deluded becasue of my enlistment with the military.
On the TV is a movie, The Invisible Circus , and the only reason it held my short attention span was that one of the actresses verry much resembled a former girlfriend. I would actually recomend this movie just for "Huh" value, if not to impess your woman into thinking that you are some kinna sensitive male that appriciates comming of age stories for girls.
But really this movie, like most things for men, made me get all introspective and self conscious. I haven't changed much over the years. Small things yes, more gruff and unfeeling, even more addictive. Stupid cigarettes caffine and videogames. But nothing worth a damn. I guess the main thing that bugs me is that I have become more distant. Friends, family, responsibility. Pretty fucking emo if you wish to disect it that way. Just remember I dont wear sweaters, listen to whiney shit and talk about suicide. I'll fucking break your face if you think otherwise.
Maybe I just need a girlfriend to keep my loins and distrusting mind occupied. Or a pet, yea, a dog is much easier to take care of than a woman, and just about as responsive sometimes. I just dont want to fuck a dog.
On the TV is a movie, The Invisible Circus , and the only reason it held my short attention span was that one of the actresses verry much resembled a former girlfriend. I would actually recomend this movie just for "Huh" value, if not to impess your woman into thinking that you are some kinna sensitive male that appriciates comming of age stories for girls.
But really this movie, like most things for men, made me get all introspective and self conscious. I haven't changed much over the years. Small things yes, more gruff and unfeeling, even more addictive. Stupid cigarettes caffine and videogames. But nothing worth a damn. I guess the main thing that bugs me is that I have become more distant. Friends, family, responsibility. Pretty fucking emo if you wish to disect it that way. Just remember I dont wear sweaters, listen to whiney shit and talk about suicide. I'll fucking break your face if you think otherwise.
Maybe I just need a girlfriend to keep my loins and distrusting mind occupied. Or a pet, yea, a dog is much easier to take care of than a woman, and just about as responsive sometimes. I just dont want to fuck a dog.