i'm done fighting/ i'm sorry
Sooooo.... i'm donewith fights over things i'm not aware i'm even involved in. I've had to fights in less than 12 hours(having to do with girls) where i was at some fault that i was unaware of.
My friend tried to get this girl i like to date me. i wasn't anywhere in the area. I was downstairs playing Tekken4. (go figure) This girls ex boyfriend who is a mutual friend to all of us ims my friend saying that she "betrayed him" by trying to get us to go out. Then he decides that he is going to bash me to her saying that i'm not actually her friend and that "i'm not as good of a friend to her as he is" I came upstairs because she was getting angry and i heard it from the kitchen.... I ask whats going on and she tells me she arguing with ihm... i scrool up in the convo to find out what about.. and i see what he said about me.. At which point all shit hits the fan. It's one thing to talk shit a bout me behind my back but when you decide you're going totry and destroy a friend ship of mine then you die. I argued with him. There was a lot of cursing, anger(obviously)internet yelling, insults and death wishes. It was all pretty much pointless. This bothered me so much that it didn't even register that my friend was trying to get me a girlfriend whilst i wasnt even present.
Fight two.. and tis one was the worst.
I've been admittingly in love with a girl in maryland for a few months now. I know at least one of my friends and one of my exes can tell anyne who doesn't know this already. Now i've also made a friend online a girl whos about 15 and acts like shes ten.... shes actually quite adorable to talk to. She apparently is in love with me... or thats what she thiks according to a very interesting comment taht she left me on my myspace. Previous to this message i had left her one saying that i <3 her.. ( let it be known that me and my emoness doesn't register that as love.... i register it as heart. it's an emo hear...) So anyway back on track we go. I was talking to the girl who i intend on marrying no matter what she( yes she has no say in this now.... she can't change her mind now... not after all of this...lol..) says. and she asked me who cassie was..( cassie= the 15 yr old w/ the awkward comment leaving abilities) I told her the truth shes a 15 yr old girl from pennsylvania that thinks shes i love with me. And she got upset because she thought i was "playing " her...( i didn't know waht the word playing meant until she used it...sware on my life) And i swore to everything that i was that i wasn't because i'm not i have no interest in the other girl. She is the inly girl i've told the words i love you to in months... when i had convinced her that i had no interest in the girl she thought i was leading the girl on.. because "everyone wants to be liked." I assured her that i really don't because actualy after the fight i had a couple of hours earlier i was totally donr with ppl liking me. basically she wouldn't believe me no matter what i said and i told her i was an idiot and i was sorry and that i'd fix everything.. she asked how would i fix it i was truthful and said i don't know and i said tell me to do anything and it's done as long as it means i'm forgiven... and she said no more drugs..(which i only smoked weed... ocassionally)andno more drinking(something i actually did often....and unforuantely might miss) I gave her my word that i wouldn't and then asked everyone who is usually with me when these banned activities take place to help me keep my promise, because this is the one part of my life i don't want to fuck up. So now i'm xXx straight edge emo kid...;lol.... (why thats funny i'm not quite sure) but w/e in the back of my mind i don't thik she forgives me really and that still hurts me and i can't get it out of my mind or heart. This kid fucked up and is sorry more than you can imagine....attempt #4
My friend tried to get this girl i like to date me. i wasn't anywhere in the area. I was downstairs playing Tekken4. (go figure) This girls ex boyfriend who is a mutual friend to all of us ims my friend saying that she "betrayed him" by trying to get us to go out. Then he decides that he is going to bash me to her saying that i'm not actually her friend and that "i'm not as good of a friend to her as he is" I came upstairs because she was getting angry and i heard it from the kitchen.... I ask whats going on and she tells me she arguing with ihm... i scrool up in the convo to find out what about.. and i see what he said about me.. At which point all shit hits the fan. It's one thing to talk shit a bout me behind my back but when you decide you're going totry and destroy a friend ship of mine then you die. I argued with him. There was a lot of cursing, anger(obviously)internet yelling, insults and death wishes. It was all pretty much pointless. This bothered me so much that it didn't even register that my friend was trying to get me a girlfriend whilst i wasnt even present.
Fight two.. and tis one was the worst.
I've been admittingly in love with a girl in maryland for a few months now. I know at least one of my friends and one of my exes can tell anyne who doesn't know this already. Now i've also made a friend online a girl whos about 15 and acts like shes ten.... shes actually quite adorable to talk to. She apparently is in love with me... or thats what she thiks according to a very interesting comment taht she left me on my myspace. Previous to this message i had left her one saying that i <3 her.. ( let it be known that me and my emoness doesn't register that as love.... i register it as heart. it's an emo hear...) So anyway back on track we go. I was talking to the girl who i intend on marrying no matter what she( yes she has no say in this now.... she can't change her mind now... not after all of this...lol..) says. and she asked me who cassie was..( cassie= the 15 yr old w/ the awkward comment leaving abilities) I told her the truth shes a 15 yr old girl from pennsylvania that thinks shes i love with me. And she got upset because she thought i was "playing " her...( i didn't know waht the word playing meant until she used it...sware on my life) And i swore to everything that i was that i wasn't because i'm not i have no interest in the other girl. She is the inly girl i've told the words i love you to in months... when i had convinced her that i had no interest in the girl she thought i was leading the girl on.. because "everyone wants to be liked." I assured her that i really don't because actualy after the fight i had a couple of hours earlier i was totally donr with ppl liking me. basically she wouldn't believe me no matter what i said and i told her i was an idiot and i was sorry and that i'd fix everything.. she asked how would i fix it i was truthful and said i don't know and i said tell me to do anything and it's done as long as it means i'm forgiven... and she said no more drugs..(which i only smoked weed... ocassionally)andno more drinking(something i actually did often....and unforuantely might miss) I gave her my word that i wouldn't and then asked everyone who is usually with me when these banned activities take place to help me keep my promise, because this is the one part of my life i don't want to fuck up. So now i'm xXx straight edge emo kid...;lol.... (why thats funny i'm not quite sure) but w/e in the back of my mind i don't thik she forgives me really and that still hurts me and i can't get it out of my mind or heart. This kid fucked up and is sorry more than you can imagine....attempt #4