I apologise for being so emo as of late...
These past two weeks have been nothing but hell for me. Losing a friend (which in retrospect wasn't a big loss), kinda being discriminated at work all because I'm not a part of their faggy ass union (no offense to gays btw, I only use those terms to describe something when I'm real pissed off), so I'm only doing warehouse (and some custodial) and none of the kitchen stuff, which really kinda sucks, our program didn't have an issue with this, but now its me during the summer its suddenly an issue to your union? Fuck you guys. You all don't deserve me, the reason why I don't quit, is because I need the money, because, its the economy and we all know how up the ass when it comes to finding jobs. Because I need to live, and also I gotta feed that videogame, anime, movie addiction somehow, and not to mention get parts for a new computer as well. So, I'm willing to go through hell and back just so I can live and buy shit and pay the bills... and shit like that.
And speaking of money...
I was trying to get my paycheck at the FUCKING AGENCY BUT GUESS THE FUCK WHAT?! IT WASN'T THERE. THOSE COCKSUCKING BASTARDS.
I didn't fucking know I was supposed to call, or else they go out to the worksites and deliver it there, I didn't have to do this when I was at meadowdale. That's just complete and utter bullshit, I was so glad I didn't go on a killing rampage.
I felt real angry and depressed and kept it in, then I had a breakdown I thought I was going to faint, or do something real stupid. So I took a nap and talked to one of my best close friends on skype, who has really been awesome throughout all this, and I thank her, when I go up to Canada to see her, I'm going to give her a hug for all she's done for me, she's a godsend next to Amanda and Leah.
I just want to be happy again, but nothing seems to be making me happy (get your mind out of the gutter assholes) at the moment, except for the new transformers movie (WHICH KICKED ASS! Fuck you critics and your bias bullshit for "oscar worthy" and "serious business" movies) and the fact that the new Miyazaki (yeah, I'm a Miyazaki fag, shut up) film, "Ponyo on the cliff by the sea" will be out soon IN AMERICA! -shot for using an overused meme- Though I would have liked to see what his son's movie Earthsea (which is based on a book), I don't care if it apparently "sucked" I just want to see it and how it turned out.
That's all I have to say. I'm really sorry if I've been worrying, bothering, annoying, pissing you off, etc. with my emoness. I hope I can get over this soon...