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So yesterday my aunt called to tell us my grandpa's doctors were only giving him a few days to live...
And today she called us to tell us he was in his final hours... We're just waiting to get the last phone call.
Although he was elderly and his pain is finally ending, I can't help but cry.
I wish I would have been able to be closer to him. But he was too old to travel in recent years. So my last memories of my grandfather will have to be from 3 years ago. Which in a way is fine. I don't have to him in the amount of pain he is in now. I can just remember how happy he was to be present at my cousin jenni's wedding. I just wish he could have been at mine.
Its amazing how close you can feel to someone, but be so fucking far away. My parents are leaving on Sunday to go to New Jeresy for his funeral and to help out my aunt with all the arrangements. God I wish I could go, but at the same time its almost easier not to have to say good bye. I'll always have the same blue eyes as him and I can always see him in my father...Memories are good. I just wish I wasn't using them to mourn him....
And today she called us to tell us he was in his final hours... We're just waiting to get the last phone call.
Although he was elderly and his pain is finally ending, I can't help but cry.
I wish I would have been able to be closer to him. But he was too old to travel in recent years. So my last memories of my grandfather will have to be from 3 years ago. Which in a way is fine. I don't have to him in the amount of pain he is in now. I can just remember how happy he was to be present at my cousin jenni's wedding. I just wish he could have been at mine.
Its amazing how close you can feel to someone, but be so fucking far away. My parents are leaving on Sunday to go to New Jeresy for his funeral and to help out my aunt with all the arrangements. God I wish I could go, but at the same time its almost easier not to have to say good bye. I'll always have the same blue eyes as him and I can always see him in my father...Memories are good. I just wish I wasn't using them to mourn him....