GaiaOnline and Random Personal Insert
That is my Gaian.
whomever has GaiaOnline, you should all like... ADD ME!!
Now! For the more personal of things!!!
I won't divulge much of my sexual experiences or life here, because this IS rather gossip mongers and social suicide kind of place public. But you all know I am proud of the fact that I'm a virgin, right? it's like my pride and joy.
So, i'm not experienced, with anything, AT ALL.
but this past weekend... things, happened.
and as Steph and Mal know, whom by the way are like my two best friends in the entire world, which really, I have to say world since they are not two doors down from me to say the least, bitches! move and come live with me!, I am freaking out and HATING myself.
It's like, one of those moments when you want to prove to yourself you can do it, so you do, do it, and then you wish you hadn't??
it's like a burning pressed memory that keeps repeating itself, and I keep thinking that maybe it really didn't happen and I'm safe.
But it did, and it sucks, and I suck-
NO PUN INTENDED.
XD
God, but I AM 19, right? that's got to count for something...
I kind of just want to curl up in my bed and laugh until I cry and cry until I sleep.