IIIIIIII'm baaaack :D *cackles at your misfortune*
Oh my goddess, it's been about a year hasn't it?!? o.o...*smiles sheepishly* I'm sry! This deserves quite an update, doesn't it?? Prepare yourselves people *takes battle stance*
Ah ha-ellos ppl of LJ ^-^ It's been awhile hasn't it?? Well, wa can I update on...ums *taps chin* Dad's laid off again, Kathy didn't go into the Marines cuz she was pregnant and they didn't catch it in the health inspections (Jonny is now almost 7 months old ^-^), Jessy came home safe from Korea and is going back again in August for a full, already paid semester of schooling, I got over everything with dat previous someone just in time for more drama to be dragged out into the open, I finally have a boyfriend after my 3 or so year break, I've been diagnosed Bipolar, I've revised both my stories on FF so you can actually understand what's going on, I'm addicted to DA, and an amazingly written BatmanxJoker slash has a strangle hold addiction on me right now...simple enough XD lols.
We're living with dad being laid off like we did before-just taking it day by day. A really close friend of mine is going through the same thing with her family, so that makes it easier to deal with too ^-^ You know who else is helping?? JONNY!!! *squeals* I loves da babie!! *giggles* Little kids scare the crap outta me (so impressionable n curious o.o I'm scared I'm gonna unintentionally teach them something bad -_-'), but for some reason Lil' Man doesn't scare me one bit. He did the first 2 or so months he was alive cuz he just seemed so breakable-now I'm over it :D He's so cute n sweet! I actually got to see him for a bit today *taps chin* So yea, Kathy didn't end up in the Marines, they moved back here to a town nearby, and we get to see them at least once a week ^-^ It's great!
Jessy did go to Korea, came back safe, n is now going back xP She's excited beyond excited, so it's ok with me now. I'm not so sure about how my parents feel, but *shrugs* there's not alot they can do, now is there. She's coming to live with us in August before she leaves and we've agreed to let her teach me Korean instead of Jap. for the time being. She said it's a great introductory language for Asian languages. I love to learn any language from any country, so it's no problem for me. When she gets back she's going to be living with us for alil while too, so I might actually get to catch up with her like it was before everything happened with Asshole. SHE'S GOT A NEW BF!! ^-^ I've never really talked to him (he's quiet n shy), but he makes Jessy really happy-which is something she's needed. Yay! *claps for her*
Umms...yeaaaaaaa, lots a drama with my friends right now. N we're not even in school anymore!! >.<' (Yay summer break!! *throws a party*) But one of my friends was almost completely in love with this guy and they were on the VERGE of going out, 'til he turned out to be a total doosh, n now she's devastated. Ok, well-she WAS devastated,now I think she's in the denial stage of it all. Maybe she really is as good as she says *shrugs* I don't really know. But as long as she's not hurting anymore, that's all that matters. Also, another close friend of mine got drunk the other weekend n lost her virginity to a complete stranger n some girl in a three some. Now, I wouldn't be upset if she'd had sex with someone she loved or were really good friends with (things happen, I get that), but no. Not only was she DRUNK-but it was with a STRANGER. Wtf?!? *shakes head* I seriously don't know why she keeps fucking up like this. She's even come right out n told me that she's never seen anything CLOSE to what me and Bambi (another friend of ours) have seen, yet she continues to be emo and screwing up her life. She has always had a loving home, gotten pretty much anything she's ever wanted, is loved by anyone who knows her, has never been through anything traumatic...I seriously just want to slap her and tell her to stop. I almost did when she told me about what happened the other weekend. This is one person I don't think I can help. Ok, I don't want to explain the rest of the drama. On the brighter side of my friend news, I am helping Bambi get out of the hellish trap of the Stoners! I don't have anything against drugs or drinking or anything like that, but they're all a bunch of brats who think they're bad asses just cuz they DO those things. So, I was ecstatic when Bambi told me she didn't really want to fit in with them anymore. Hanging out with my weird beyond odd friends made her realize they're not all the shit she thought they were. I feel accomplished :D ANYWAY!
*smiles shyly* I have a boyfriend again. The funny thing is, he's the exact opposite of me xP But my parents are the exact opposites of eachother n I've never seen a couple so loving towards eachother, so I just ignore all the preppy butts that hammered my sister about us not working out. Fuck them. Anyway, Austin fell even deeper into the "I'm going to grow up to be a hobo" whole he was in when we finally broke up n I've done nothing but gotten better, so I gave up on us ever getting together LOOOOOOONG ago. Apparently, Jake liked me even when Austin n I were going out just like I liked him (we were drummers together in band), but when Austin broke up with me he didn't think I'd want to go out with the exact opposite of myself. So, we've been going on for the last few years acting like we didn't like eachother 'til finally my friends couldn't take it anymore n intervened *giggle* We've been going out for 4 months exactly yesterday ^-^ One of the reasons this summer seems to be dragging on o.o I was so use to seeing him everyday cuz of school, then suddenly-BAM!! I don't see him for a week at a time (though we pretty much talk all the time on Yahoo!, so I can't complain) It's been semi-hard on me :( Oh well ;P Though he tends to be very simple minded, destructive, and sometimes spoiled (he's the baby of his family), he's the sweetest guy I know next to Honcho, doesn't care about what I've done in my past just cuz he loves the way it's made me turn out, and (honest to god, ask anyone who knows him) rather do math or play football than think about sex. You have nooooo idea how hard my friends are on him about being like that (just cuz they're gutter heads like that, lols). Even if we were to break up I think we'll still remain friends (unlike me n Austin), just becuz we were friends before this and he's too amazing to let go like that. I do have to admit I'm in love with him (*crowd gasps as I mention the forbidden "L" word* Me: -_-' We've flirted for the last 3 years!! I'd have to say it's not that shocking), so I could be alil bias, but I can't see him breaking up with me in a harsh way for something shallow or anything like that. It'll most likely be a mutual thing if it ever did happen, so :P. lols
One reason I've been doing so much better besides Jake, I'm finally being treated for the right mental illness!! During one of my 3 month check ups I told my doctor about what's really going on inside my head and he was like, "hmmm...sounds like we're treating the wrong thing. Have you ever considered being Manic Depressive??" Me: "Um, yea. My old therapist once said I was either severely depressed, Bipolar, or had a Borderline Personality disorder. I got out before she could really figure it out." So, he took me off the not working anti-depressants I was on n put me on Symbax and I haven't felt THIS good in...god, I can't tell you how long ^-^ I can concentrate now, I'm sleeping through the night, I'm alot let aggressive and irritable, my self-esteem has even gone up abit...just alot better.
On to internet news!! I read both of the stories on Fanfiction one day n was like, "o.o oh my god! You can't understand a thing!! I must make it worthy of the reviews!!" So, in my spare time, I revised both "Dreaming of You" and "So far, so bad". SFSB was kinda hard to rewrite just cuz I wrote it at a time when I was REALLY depressed, so it was difficult to read it again, then write it again, n know I had to continue. But, I lived through it without getting too upset and I'm doing alil experiment. I'm going to see if I can continue even though I'm in a good mood....I'll write back later on how that turns out >.> But you might have to check the update out on DA. deviantART!!! *squeals alil* I love it!! http://animeluver666.deviantart.com/ check it out. I post alot of nature photography, but lately I've been on a stamp n icon kick, so we'll just have to see how that turns out. THAT'S whats been eating up my time; keeping up with my friends on there XD That n SiE. SLIPPING INTO ENTROPY!! *jumps up n down screaming* yesssssssssssss-a thing of wonder. BEAUTIFULLY written story with an amazing plot-read it. You must find it on here and read it! Well, if you're into slash anyway o.o Hell, I'm forcing my friends to read it since I finished it >:) teehees. Well, Kiki should be reading it, but is she?? no. Cuz she hates me *cries for a second, then giggles* jk ^-^ but no! really, find it n read it. It's the cooliest thing in the world n will make u love TDK even more! :D I'm not as obsessed as I was when I first read it, but I'm still pretty obsessed. lols.
Well, I've updated-now u can't haunt my conscious!!*laughs wickedly as I run away*...hopefully I'll keep up on doing that. If not, I'll talk to you all next year! I bid thee all a fine farewell. Sayonara! ~Peace~
Ah ha-ellos ppl of LJ ^-^ It's been awhile hasn't it?? Well, wa can I update on...ums *taps chin* Dad's laid off again, Kathy didn't go into the Marines cuz she was pregnant and they didn't catch it in the health inspections (Jonny is now almost 7 months old ^-^), Jessy came home safe from Korea and is going back again in August for a full, already paid semester of schooling, I got over everything with dat previous someone just in time for more drama to be dragged out into the open, I finally have a boyfriend after my 3 or so year break, I've been diagnosed Bipolar, I've revised both my stories on FF so you can actually understand what's going on, I'm addicted to DA, and an amazingly written BatmanxJoker slash has a strangle hold addiction on me right now...simple enough XD lols.
We're living with dad being laid off like we did before-just taking it day by day. A really close friend of mine is going through the same thing with her family, so that makes it easier to deal with too ^-^ You know who else is helping?? JONNY!!! *squeals* I loves da babie!! *giggles* Little kids scare the crap outta me (so impressionable n curious o.o I'm scared I'm gonna unintentionally teach them something bad -_-'), but for some reason Lil' Man doesn't scare me one bit. He did the first 2 or so months he was alive cuz he just seemed so breakable-now I'm over it :D He's so cute n sweet! I actually got to see him for a bit today *taps chin* So yea, Kathy didn't end up in the Marines, they moved back here to a town nearby, and we get to see them at least once a week ^-^ It's great!
Jessy did go to Korea, came back safe, n is now going back xP She's excited beyond excited, so it's ok with me now. I'm not so sure about how my parents feel, but *shrugs* there's not alot they can do, now is there. She's coming to live with us in August before she leaves and we've agreed to let her teach me Korean instead of Jap. for the time being. She said it's a great introductory language for Asian languages. I love to learn any language from any country, so it's no problem for me. When she gets back she's going to be living with us for alil while too, so I might actually get to catch up with her like it was before everything happened with Asshole. SHE'S GOT A NEW BF!! ^-^ I've never really talked to him (he's quiet n shy), but he makes Jessy really happy-which is something she's needed. Yay! *claps for her*
Umms...yeaaaaaaa, lots a drama with my friends right now. N we're not even in school anymore!! >.<' (Yay summer break!! *throws a party*) But one of my friends was almost completely in love with this guy and they were on the VERGE of going out, 'til he turned out to be a total doosh, n now she's devastated. Ok, well-she WAS devastated,now I think she's in the denial stage of it all. Maybe she really is as good as she says *shrugs* I don't really know. But as long as she's not hurting anymore, that's all that matters. Also, another close friend of mine got drunk the other weekend n lost her virginity to a complete stranger n some girl in a three some. Now, I wouldn't be upset if she'd had sex with someone she loved or were really good friends with (things happen, I get that), but no. Not only was she DRUNK-but it was with a STRANGER. Wtf?!? *shakes head* I seriously don't know why she keeps fucking up like this. She's even come right out n told me that she's never seen anything CLOSE to what me and Bambi (another friend of ours) have seen, yet she continues to be emo and screwing up her life. She has always had a loving home, gotten pretty much anything she's ever wanted, is loved by anyone who knows her, has never been through anything traumatic...I seriously just want to slap her and tell her to stop. I almost did when she told me about what happened the other weekend. This is one person I don't think I can help. Ok, I don't want to explain the rest of the drama. On the brighter side of my friend news, I am helping Bambi get out of the hellish trap of the Stoners! I don't have anything against drugs or drinking or anything like that, but they're all a bunch of brats who think they're bad asses just cuz they DO those things. So, I was ecstatic when Bambi told me she didn't really want to fit in with them anymore. Hanging out with my weird beyond odd friends made her realize they're not all the shit she thought they were. I feel accomplished :D ANYWAY!
*smiles shyly* I have a boyfriend again. The funny thing is, he's the exact opposite of me xP But my parents are the exact opposites of eachother n I've never seen a couple so loving towards eachother, so I just ignore all the preppy butts that hammered my sister about us not working out. Fuck them. Anyway, Austin fell even deeper into the "I'm going to grow up to be a hobo" whole he was in when we finally broke up n I've done nothing but gotten better, so I gave up on us ever getting together LOOOOOOONG ago. Apparently, Jake liked me even when Austin n I were going out just like I liked him (we were drummers together in band), but when Austin broke up with me he didn't think I'd want to go out with the exact opposite of myself. So, we've been going on for the last few years acting like we didn't like eachother 'til finally my friends couldn't take it anymore n intervened *giggle* We've been going out for 4 months exactly yesterday ^-^ One of the reasons this summer seems to be dragging on o.o I was so use to seeing him everyday cuz of school, then suddenly-BAM!! I don't see him for a week at a time (though we pretty much talk all the time on Yahoo!, so I can't complain) It's been semi-hard on me :( Oh well ;P Though he tends to be very simple minded, destructive, and sometimes spoiled (he's the baby of his family), he's the sweetest guy I know next to Honcho, doesn't care about what I've done in my past just cuz he loves the way it's made me turn out, and (honest to god, ask anyone who knows him) rather do math or play football than think about sex. You have nooooo idea how hard my friends are on him about being like that (just cuz they're gutter heads like that, lols). Even if we were to break up I think we'll still remain friends (unlike me n Austin), just becuz we were friends before this and he's too amazing to let go like that. I do have to admit I'm in love with him (*crowd gasps as I mention the forbidden "L" word* Me: -_-' We've flirted for the last 3 years!! I'd have to say it's not that shocking), so I could be alil bias, but I can't see him breaking up with me in a harsh way for something shallow or anything like that. It'll most likely be a mutual thing if it ever did happen, so :P. lols
One reason I've been doing so much better besides Jake, I'm finally being treated for the right mental illness!! During one of my 3 month check ups I told my doctor about what's really going on inside my head and he was like, "hmmm...sounds like we're treating the wrong thing. Have you ever considered being Manic Depressive??" Me: "Um, yea. My old therapist once said I was either severely depressed, Bipolar, or had a Borderline Personality disorder. I got out before she could really figure it out." So, he took me off the not working anti-depressants I was on n put me on Symbax and I haven't felt THIS good in...god, I can't tell you how long ^-^ I can concentrate now, I'm sleeping through the night, I'm alot let aggressive and irritable, my self-esteem has even gone up abit...just alot better.
On to internet news!! I read both of the stories on Fanfiction one day n was like, "o.o oh my god! You can't understand a thing!! I must make it worthy of the reviews!!" So, in my spare time, I revised both "Dreaming of You" and "So far, so bad". SFSB was kinda hard to rewrite just cuz I wrote it at a time when I was REALLY depressed, so it was difficult to read it again, then write it again, n know I had to continue. But, I lived through it without getting too upset and I'm doing alil experiment. I'm going to see if I can continue even though I'm in a good mood....I'll write back later on how that turns out >.> But you might have to check the update out on DA. deviantART!!! *squeals alil* I love it!! http://animeluver666.deviantart.com/ check it out. I post alot of nature photography, but lately I've been on a stamp n icon kick, so we'll just have to see how that turns out. THAT'S whats been eating up my time; keeping up with my friends on there XD That n SiE. SLIPPING INTO ENTROPY!! *jumps up n down screaming* yesssssssssssss-a thing of wonder. BEAUTIFULLY written story with an amazing plot-read it. You must find it on here and read it! Well, if you're into slash anyway o.o Hell, I'm forcing my friends to read it since I finished it >:) teehees. Well, Kiki should be reading it, but is she?? no. Cuz she hates me *cries for a second, then giggles* jk ^-^ but no! really, find it n read it. It's the cooliest thing in the world n will make u love TDK even more! :D I'm not as obsessed as I was when I first read it, but I'm still pretty obsessed. lols.
Well, I've updated-now u can't haunt my conscious!!*laughs wickedly as I run away*...hopefully I'll keep up on doing that. If not, I'll talk to you all next year! I bid thee all a fine farewell. Sayonara! ~Peace~