"i shall love thee more after death"
Tonight I came across this site: www.findagrave.com (it's not that I have never known of its existence, I just never paid any attention to it). Knowing that Jeremy Brett was cremated, I searched for him there anyway. On this site you can post some notes, which usually go: "You were a great actor. Love you forever, XXX". I started to run though these notes while talking on the phone -- otherwise I would just stop after 50 notes but since my friend always talks for hours and hours I had some time to run though amost all of them (228 ;)).
Every now and then I noticed some rather long posts and started to read some of them. They were written by a woman who knew Jeremy -- she met him in London and they were exchanging letters and... even talking on the phone (or so she claims ;)).
The point is, this woman is completely head over heels in love with Jeremy -- and it's just amazing how she dedicated her whole life to loving him. I don't blame her for loving him - I understand her perfectly as I adore him myself and geez... who could better understand a woman who loves somebody a) who's dead, b) whom she can't have if not me! ;) But writing the posts as if he was going to read them, for example: "Thank you, my dearest friend, for your visit today; yes, of course I will honour your request on the new memorial"; or writing "love you, my sweet pet" is just insane O_o She literally writes TO HIM, tells him that the new online memorial will soon be ready and she even claims that she knew him so well that she can even write something ON HIS BEHALF (which she did and it was very amusing ;))
I really think that it is very wonderful that she loves him after all these years but she's just gone crazy, which is very sad. I know how hard it is to move on... but once you know that somebody you love is gone forever and there is absolutely no hope anymore, shouldn't it be easier?
Hmm, actually after all these musings I realised that, hey!, why should she move on? She will never meet anybody half as good as him anyway! She should be grateful and happy that she actually knew him and that he felt something for her. It's really beautiful to dedicate your life to your love, but please... She just goes too far... Jeremy Brett is not going to read her messages, he's not going to visit the online memorial and he doesn't accompany her in everything she does. She is 46, she is single and has no children. OK, I understand this - she loves Jeremy, so how could she be with somebody else. But maybe at least she could behave more normally and stop making a psycho-fool of herself? :/
Beuh... I don't really know what to think of it! On one hand, her love is beautiful, on the other one - she behaves very pathetic... (apparently I have nothing better to do in my life but to think about this woman ;))
Plus I terribly envy her! I envy her a lot! I'd love to meet him too, but I was only 9 when he died, so I guess it would be quite impossible. But still, I was so awfully jealous when I read that she knew him and I never will ^_^ I think I'm going to write to her :P
Ah, and that's Jeremy on my avatar - isn't he gorgeous? One of the few guys I'd like to have sex with, which i guess makes me equally pathetic as this woman named Kelley ^_^
And to sum it up: long live fangirls!
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