goodbye and goodnight

[inuitandi]

Andi is no longer with Kyle.. it was hard as hell but it would have hurt a lot more later. I know this will probley piss a lot of people off and they wont understand but I'm sorry. I found out I can't do it all.. college, work, friend, and everything else just felt like it was all piling up on me and I couldnt seem to keep up. It was like I was constantly in this cloud and never felt like I was good enough no matter how hard I was trying.. I couldnt be there for anyone, learn fast enough, move quick enough, or...be around basically. So I cant quit work or school..and I wont quit seeing my friends. Kyle if you read this.. I never mean to hurt anyone just with my life things are different. A lot of people think.. oh she doesnt do too much and could make time.. no one really ever realizes to make time for one thing I have to take time from another.. lately its been school.. and majorly sleep. The only way I could do my work and everything and see friends was goign to dennys and I couldnt seem to ever consintrate on anything for more than maybe 6 minutes tops... I also cant spell the word concintrate to save my life. So yep life has been very eventful lately.. so sick of hurting people..so wierd.. I knew I didnt have much time before but I so badly wanted to just be the girl that could do everything you know? Turns out I cant. Its not fair for someone to want to see me when the only time they do is liek once or twice a week because of scheduals..Makes me wonder if I'll ever get married or anything or just be the lady with the career for her whole life. I need a break from Grand Ledge, Waverly, East Lansing.. all of it. So hows everyone else doing?

~Ms. Andi~