Because I just can't leave this thing alone....

Dec 20, 2004 23:25

Well many things have happened since I posted my engagement announcement. Well, two things mostly. First being, I'm already married, but I'll get to explaining that after I get to the second thing. In November of 2003, my father was diagnosed with Bladder Cancer. It was a long and arduous year, full of pain and suffering on all our parts, especially his which ended December 4th of this year when he passed away at his home with me and one of his friends looking on. I still don't know what to make of it all, I figure I'll have the rest of my own life to sort that out. Maybe it's a good thing I get an early start, eh? I also thought that maybe if I pick this thing up again, it might help me sort out some answers. I do know that this has affected me more than I realize and will continue to do so. I guess I just take every day as it comes, right?

Anyway, the reason why my husband and I decided to move our wedding date up was because it was my hope that my father would still be well enough to attend. We moved the date to the Saturday after Thanksgiving, but unfortunately it wasn't soon enough. He spent my wedding day in the hospital, but he was able to listen to the ceremony on a cell phone. Luckily enough that also happened to be one of his good responsive days, so I know he heard everything.

I know the majority of people will be looking forward to Christmas this year. I can't say for certain that I will. I fear this will be a really tough time for my mother and myself. But my mother's family is coming over, so at least we won't be alone for it. So I guess my suggestion for this year is to treasure what you have, because you never know how long you're gonna have it for...
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