I dunno <--My famous phrase..
Sometimes I feel like I can't do anything right. Like he's too old for me. He is in a way, he's learned from the mistakes I have yet to make and I feel like it annoys him. Being younger and still not really having experience with life I don't think it's really fair.
Today he saw the porn pic that Furryfreakstudios drew. I guess he thought it was serious as I saw it on his screen as I walked over while he was at the computer. He didn't like it at all and took it quite personally. I think he thinks I'm doing what xander did and it's not even that.
Furryfreakstudios had a volunteer journal basically saying that she wanted practice with porn and wanted someone else to draw so that she (using her own character/s) could better grasp the genre. I looked at it briefly then waited. She gave the journal a 30 minute time period. Close to the end, noticing that no one had responded I went ahead and volunteered. I too am an artist not familiar with porn so if I wanted a subject I'd want someone else to draw too (Matt always tells me I draw my fursona too much as well as himself (as little as it maybe)).
I guess that's were I made my mistake. Using my character instead of something else? All I wanted to do was to help a fellow artist before she got into SCAD (Savannah Georgia Art School).
I didn't mean to hurt him….never meant to unlike his ex. I guess I still got some adjusting to do. I don't ever doubt my love towards him. But sometimes I feel he doesn't like me too much. I'm very different in comparison to himself. Which I always thought was a plus. I do try to make this man happy. But I always fall short.
I dunno, I wanted to vent to someone. Seems like the only way I can truly speak my mind is by texting or typing. I am a prisoner in my own mind. But even vocally things NEVER come out right.
I love this man more than I could ever promise. I just hope he feels the same towards me. Mistakes and all. : /
Today he saw the porn pic that Furryfreakstudios drew. I guess he thought it was serious as I saw it on his screen as I walked over while he was at the computer. He didn't like it at all and took it quite personally. I think he thinks I'm doing what xander did and it's not even that.
Furryfreakstudios had a volunteer journal basically saying that she wanted practice with porn and wanted someone else to draw so that she (using her own character/s) could better grasp the genre. I looked at it briefly then waited. She gave the journal a 30 minute time period. Close to the end, noticing that no one had responded I went ahead and volunteered. I too am an artist not familiar with porn so if I wanted a subject I'd want someone else to draw too (Matt always tells me I draw my fursona too much as well as himself (as little as it maybe)).
I guess that's were I made my mistake. Using my character instead of something else? All I wanted to do was to help a fellow artist before she got into SCAD (Savannah Georgia Art School).
I didn't mean to hurt him….never meant to unlike his ex. I guess I still got some adjusting to do. I don't ever doubt my love towards him. But sometimes I feel he doesn't like me too much. I'm very different in comparison to himself. Which I always thought was a plus. I do try to make this man happy. But I always fall short.
I dunno, I wanted to vent to someone. Seems like the only way I can truly speak my mind is by texting or typing. I am a prisoner in my own mind. But even vocally things NEVER come out right.
I love this man more than I could ever promise. I just hope he feels the same towards me. Mistakes and all. : /