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So I started to wonder what it would be like right now if none of this hurricane shit would have happened. I would have stayed with Alexa only one night at Bills and then we would have gone home. The next night we would have went out to Bourbon….Curious what would have happened. I think Eric would have been there and how would have worked out? She would have been mostly with him and just hanging with me casually even with how we were the night before. I would probably have realized that I wasn’t exactly what I thought I might have been to her and then most likely just been casual with her afterwards. No matter what we would have been friends. I really like hanging out with her, she is different and pretty interesting. It’s good to have someone there to talk to whenever. After that night though I would have played my last game at UNO and then ventured off to Baton Rouge again for the second week of school. I would have talked to her most of that week and looked forward to the next weekend. When that weekend came though I don’t know what would have happened.
That night at Bills though, I wanted to kiss her and I could have, but I didn’t want our relationship to start off that way, just in it for the physical. They never seem to work out right. It didn’t matter that much anyway. The next day we came up to Baton Rouge and she moved in. So I guess really it doesn’t matter so much what might have happened. Right now here we are with 4 people in an apartment of 2. I really don’t mind. It is actually good to have company all the time. I don’t even mind sharing my room or my bed. I like sleeping with someone. I guess the real thing is that she told me that I’m worried what is going to happen in the future.
This semester is going to be weird. There really isn’t anyone that I am really interested in. For her though Eric is still around. She still loves him and that cant be held against her, but its just weird because it is hard to decipher what she really wants. Of course like anyone else she wants both sides of it, but that is hard to have with everything that is going on. I don’t know what she sees in him. I asked her once and all I got was really he is nice to her. Hasn’t ever really treated her badly and loves her. All of which are admirable, but what does she really want? Now that is the question to be asked. Do you think she really knows? I don’t, she is just playing the game and trying to figure it out.
I guess only time will tell really, but honestly I don’t really want to wait around for this and have the same thing happen again as did with Elizabeth. That was bullshit.Im not saying that I dont want to do anything with her anymore or ty and win her over. I dont play the games I think they are rediculous. Do what you want to do and be done with it. Im finished with this entry....
That night at Bills though, I wanted to kiss her and I could have, but I didn’t want our relationship to start off that way, just in it for the physical. They never seem to work out right. It didn’t matter that much anyway. The next day we came up to Baton Rouge and she moved in. So I guess really it doesn’t matter so much what might have happened. Right now here we are with 4 people in an apartment of 2. I really don’t mind. It is actually good to have company all the time. I don’t even mind sharing my room or my bed. I like sleeping with someone. I guess the real thing is that she told me that I’m worried what is going to happen in the future.
This semester is going to be weird. There really isn’t anyone that I am really interested in. For her though Eric is still around. She still loves him and that cant be held against her, but its just weird because it is hard to decipher what she really wants. Of course like anyone else she wants both sides of it, but that is hard to have with everything that is going on. I don’t know what she sees in him. I asked her once and all I got was really he is nice to her. Hasn’t ever really treated her badly and loves her. All of which are admirable, but what does she really want? Now that is the question to be asked. Do you think she really knows? I don’t, she is just playing the game and trying to figure it out.
I guess only time will tell really, but honestly I don’t really want to wait around for this and have the same thing happen again as did with Elizabeth. That was bullshit.Im not saying that I dont want to do anything with her anymore or ty and win her over. I dont play the games I think they are rediculous. Do what you want to do and be done with it. Im finished with this entry....