***I don't even know how to explain this***
Wow....so I am def a reck! AGH!!!! Today at practice I was on the verge of tears for a whole hour. I got there super tired and I just felt upset with the way everything is going right now. Am I gonna go to the right college.....how can i make more money.....will i be a good producer...there's just so much do gte done ove rthese next two years and it's all sinking in I guess.
But a lot of you know that this isn't really what this post is about. It's a about a "someone." It's so hard to try and explain to people what I feel, because unless you've actually gone through it...there's no way you can know how much this is hurting me. Have you ever had a person in your life, who, no matter how hard you try to forget or push away from....they're always there...telling you mind and especially your heart to not let go. With this person leaving soon....I don't know what to do. Should I be honest...or just hold it all in. It's literally killing me. Like I just broke down in front of Emily tonight explaining it all to her. I don't want him to be the one who got away, but I also don't want to ruin what we have right now. This is so stressful and I don't know how to deal with it.
I don't know if I could handle losing him if he found out and didn't know how to react.
~intuitiongone~
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But a lot of you know that this isn't really what this post is about. It's a about a "someone." It's so hard to try and explain to people what I feel, because unless you've actually gone through it...there's no way you can know how much this is hurting me. Have you ever had a person in your life, who, no matter how hard you try to forget or push away from....they're always there...telling you mind and especially your heart to not let go. With this person leaving soon....I don't know what to do. Should I be honest...or just hold it all in. It's literally killing me. Like I just broke down in front of Emily tonight explaining it all to her. I don't want him to be the one who got away, but I also don't want to ruin what we have right now. This is so stressful and I don't know how to deal with it.
I don't know if I could handle losing him if he found out and didn't know how to react.
~intuitiongone~
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Brought to you by pratibha75 and teemus.