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There are days like today,
when you feel as small as you really are in this world.
You realize that you are only a mere dust particle in this universe.
The intensity in life becomes a joke, and the reality blindsides you
It's a climb to the top, a fight til the end, and nobody gets out alive.
My purpose becomes cloudy and no explanations are given
Sometimes I think I am the crazy one, the one that does infact have the issues....
no....no, i dont think that's true. Im leaning in that direction at times, and I intimidate myself. Nonsense I babble all the time. You used to listen. I havent found anyone will listen to me. Who will take the time to know me.
Nobody cares but you, but wait you dont even care anymore. I forget sometimes, its hard. I cant get over something that isnt even there. I want the old you, the one who loved me. the one who wanted to know every detail about my being. about my soul. about my past lives, about my depth, and my abilities. I miss that person. To my shame, that person does not exist in you. Your transformation can not be reversed. I cant never have back what I had. So I guess I will grieve you like a death. A death with your haunting spirit everywhere I go, Every thought I think, every emotion I comprehend. I cant get away from you, I cant pull myself away. I want you to come with me. Not you, the old you. the old you adored me, cherished every moment with me. I really fucked up. Biggest mistake of my life was losing you. Although I do stand by my philosophy in life, THFAR. Have faith, believe and maybe god will put you back where you should have been all along.
when you feel as small as you really are in this world.
You realize that you are only a mere dust particle in this universe.
The intensity in life becomes a joke, and the reality blindsides you
It's a climb to the top, a fight til the end, and nobody gets out alive.
My purpose becomes cloudy and no explanations are given
Sometimes I think I am the crazy one, the one that does infact have the issues....
no....no, i dont think that's true. Im leaning in that direction at times, and I intimidate myself. Nonsense I babble all the time. You used to listen. I havent found anyone will listen to me. Who will take the time to know me.
Nobody cares but you, but wait you dont even care anymore. I forget sometimes, its hard. I cant get over something that isnt even there. I want the old you, the one who loved me. the one who wanted to know every detail about my being. about my soul. about my past lives, about my depth, and my abilities. I miss that person. To my shame, that person does not exist in you. Your transformation can not be reversed. I cant never have back what I had. So I guess I will grieve you like a death. A death with your haunting spirit everywhere I go, Every thought I think, every emotion I comprehend. I cant get away from you, I cant pull myself away. I want you to come with me. Not you, the old you. the old you adored me, cherished every moment with me. I really fucked up. Biggest mistake of my life was losing you. Although I do stand by my philosophy in life, THFAR. Have faith, believe and maybe god will put you back where you should have been all along.