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i just had the gayest talk ever with my dad. lame, but i really did need some nicotine after that. its hilarious to think that i would spring so many things about myself onto my parents in one week, but at the same time so my style of dealing with things. i turn twenty on monday and to be honest i have been way more excited about birthdays in the past than this year. i just know that i am more consumed with jordan coming to visit and dealing with mom and dad seeing us in action than anything else. its a good visit, just one fuckin' awkward one. oh, and jordan coming to visit is a whole entry in itself. so many feelings. good, bad, indifferent, scared, excited. meh, i guess things will just be whatever they are. i'm not putting to much pressure on the whole situation, or at least trying not to. on the other hand i am so happy to be back in LA. it truly does feel alot more like home compared to san francisco and even if i have to put up with family, its worth it. gah ok it just hit me that jordan will be here this time tomorrow. i am like ODing on excitement. ok lj, i put in my two cents and am now bored. we'll talk once i've hit 20.