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my luck has been so good lately. like almost too good i don't want to admit it. alot has happend since my last update, so heres the scoop. i have now been working at Villains Vault for about a month now. this job is basically what my life consists of right now. it is the best feeling ever to actually have a job you and enjoy and don't mind going to five days a week ish. my co-workers are awsome, the pay is amazing, and the schedule fits my life like a glove. i finally feel as though i am slowly being weened away from relying on my parents for support. aside from my rent, i am basically on my own and quite compfortably which is cool. it sucks having to grow up and take on such responsibilities but in the end i really feel like i value my things and what i buy alot more since i have worked to get what i want instead of being handed things on a silver platter like i have a great deal of my life. its gratifying, truly. also, i have basically dropped out of school for a semester or what may look like a year until i can settle in new york and attend parsons for design and management. thats all i can think about. i feel like san francisco is just a stepping stone to getting to where i want to be, and for now, i am ok with that. getting where you want to be in life takes sacrifices and work which is now. --- the only void is love life. i swear i move to the gayest city on the planet yet the dating scene is horrible. i have a boy in LA and one in NY but everytime i find somebody i want to be with we are always hundreds of miles apart. for once it would be nice to have the compfort of having somebody in the same city i can love. eghh ok, thats that.
OH but i have discovered where all the hot boys hang out and who they are. they are either on a bike and pass you faster than you noticed them or have a boyfriend or most ilkely straight. i swear because of the gay men to straight men ratio in this city the straight men know they have the upper hand and can extra picky about what girls they date. which i guess makes sense. odd as it sounds, this city is perfect for the straight male because for every one of him there are like 3 gay men. i just have enough women in my life i need some testosterone and it doesn't help that i have been drinking soy milf religiously for about a month now. i had to stop last week because i seriously felt more weird and emotional than i have in my whole life. screw estrogen, i am so thankful for my penis.---i don't think i will be able to go home for too long over winter break because of my job. maybe a week or so if i can get that time off. ---my new favorite show is Nip/Tuck. since i have moved into my new apartment and had no television for about two months now, i start watching tv shows on DVD and am absolutely in love with this show. i am going to watch an episode after i finish this entry. my roomate, nora, has been getting on my nerves lately. she is 18 years old and just moved out of the house and goes to bed by 11 'o clock every fucking night. maybe 12 on the weekends. this especialll makes it hard on my part because i can't even go to the kitchen to get food because she sleeps on a futon in the living room. not to mention having people over and having to be quite. i figure that i pay rent too so igo get food in the middle of the night because i am hungry god damnnit. whatever. if that pisses her off then i have issues with her fucking to the wee hours of the morning with these randoms she brings home every so often. not to mention when she plays blondie at 9 in the morning on a sunday while cleaning the dishes. as of right now things between us are not in the best place but i hope it will pass considering the lease i signed. she just needs to chill the fuck out sometimes. ok, so shes not horrible just little things erk me sometimes. i am tired and have work in the morning. i miss alou. ok goodnight.
OH but i have discovered where all the hot boys hang out and who they are. they are either on a bike and pass you faster than you noticed them or have a boyfriend or most ilkely straight. i swear because of the gay men to straight men ratio in this city the straight men know they have the upper hand and can extra picky about what girls they date. which i guess makes sense. odd as it sounds, this city is perfect for the straight male because for every one of him there are like 3 gay men. i just have enough women in my life i need some testosterone and it doesn't help that i have been drinking soy milf religiously for about a month now. i had to stop last week because i seriously felt more weird and emotional than i have in my whole life. screw estrogen, i am so thankful for my penis.---i don't think i will be able to go home for too long over winter break because of my job. maybe a week or so if i can get that time off. ---my new favorite show is Nip/Tuck. since i have moved into my new apartment and had no television for about two months now, i start watching tv shows on DVD and am absolutely in love with this show. i am going to watch an episode after i finish this entry. my roomate, nora, has been getting on my nerves lately. she is 18 years old and just moved out of the house and goes to bed by 11 'o clock every fucking night. maybe 12 on the weekends. this especialll makes it hard on my part because i can't even go to the kitchen to get food because she sleeps on a futon in the living room. not to mention having people over and having to be quite. i figure that i pay rent too so igo get food in the middle of the night because i am hungry god damnnit. whatever. if that pisses her off then i have issues with her fucking to the wee hours of the morning with these randoms she brings home every so often. not to mention when she plays blondie at 9 in the morning on a sunday while cleaning the dishes. as of right now things between us are not in the best place but i hope it will pass considering the lease i signed. she just needs to chill the fuck out sometimes. ok, so shes not horrible just little things erk me sometimes. i am tired and have work in the morning. i miss alou. ok goodnight.