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In another note... I really should be cutting back on those autistic Chip-Kidd-style posts like the last one. Although they are cool to look at, they are completely incomprehensible to most readers who then can not comment on them. In fact, I have become so cryptic that I may well forget exactly what the hell I was talking about in a few years.
So let's get to the straight shit... you haven't called Estee, you called her right before you got sick and then promised you'd call when you got back home. Well, you didn't call. You've been well for days now and could at least have emailed her and told her about your World's Fair show performance you did Tuesday, but no, nothing.
Are you afraid of what to say? Do you have no idea of what to say? Do you think she is sick of you being to gentle and always wanting to talk about bands and her work and school? Does she want you to act differently? Does she want you to shave your beard? Does she really care whether or not you are Jewish? Is she really just looking for a nice Jewish boy in which case you should forget about her and look for someone else? Is it worth staying friends with her even if no serious relationship develops?
Why does she list herself as "single" on her page? I guess she doesn't consider this a relationship? Maybe she doesn't want friends and family to know she's going out with you? Would you be under suspicion because you are someone she only just met barely 6 months ago? Is she supposed to date at all?
Should you change your status back to "single" if you think nothing much is going on?
Do you really care that much about her? Is it there or is it not there? There is a certain bond, yes, but it doesn't feel as deep as some other bonds. I dunno... I can't just sit around and wait for lightning to strike, it's either there or it isn't! Then again... lightning striking is the way you fell for those other two ladies... it was love at like 2022nd sight for the first, and immediate fascination for the most-discussed. I dunno, I dunno, I need to love and yet I don't really want to because I just want a f@#$%#^ relationship god dammit... I want a really deep mutual friendship but yet I also want the hot sexxx dammit and wait... maybe I should shave off this goddamn beard... it even turns ME off. Maybe that's the ticket??? Is anyone out there in LJ-land lusting for the lumberjack beard and wants me to keep it? Speak now or forever hold your peace!
I have that damn job interview (I am looking forward to it... they already recognize me WITH the beard... it might make me look educated...) in a couple of days and can't decide whether to keep it. It will be trimmed short until further notice.
What is the deealio, mang?
I have a lot of questions, but not a lot of answers.
So let's get to the straight shit... you haven't called Estee, you called her right before you got sick and then promised you'd call when you got back home. Well, you didn't call. You've been well for days now and could at least have emailed her and told her about your World's Fair show performance you did Tuesday, but no, nothing.
Are you afraid of what to say? Do you have no idea of what to say? Do you think she is sick of you being to gentle and always wanting to talk about bands and her work and school? Does she want you to act differently? Does she want you to shave your beard? Does she really care whether or not you are Jewish? Is she really just looking for a nice Jewish boy in which case you should forget about her and look for someone else? Is it worth staying friends with her even if no serious relationship develops?
Why does she list herself as "single" on her page? I guess she doesn't consider this a relationship? Maybe she doesn't want friends and family to know she's going out with you? Would you be under suspicion because you are someone she only just met barely 6 months ago? Is she supposed to date at all?
Should you change your status back to "single" if you think nothing much is going on?
Do you really care that much about her? Is it there or is it not there? There is a certain bond, yes, but it doesn't feel as deep as some other bonds. I dunno... I can't just sit around and wait for lightning to strike, it's either there or it isn't! Then again... lightning striking is the way you fell for those other two ladies... it was love at like 2022nd sight for the first, and immediate fascination for the most-discussed. I dunno, I dunno, I need to love and yet I don't really want to because I just want a f@#$%#^ relationship god dammit... I want a really deep mutual friendship but yet I also want the hot sexxx dammit and wait... maybe I should shave off this goddamn beard... it even turns ME off. Maybe that's the ticket??? Is anyone out there in LJ-land lusting for the lumberjack beard and wants me to keep it? Speak now or forever hold your peace!
I have that damn job interview (I am looking forward to it... they already recognize me WITH the beard... it might make me look educated...) in a couple of days and can't decide whether to keep it. It will be trimmed short until further notice.
What is the deealio, mang?
I have a lot of questions, but not a lot of answers.