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my God it's been forever. i honestly have no recollection of the last time i posted anything. i doubt i'm even the same girl. but as i lie restlessly in bed, confronting thoughts, i'm struck by the enormity of life. sometimes it seems so trivial. a test, a paper, a dance. but other times, it begins to close in upon me. i realize how little time is left and how little of myself i have infused upon the world. two more years here and then what? what will be next? will my oft-repeated aspirations become reality, or will they simply fade into the long list of words spoken but never actualized? what does one do when she begins to lose sight of herself amidst all the different versions, and how does one determine which version is true?
how does one confront the enormity of life?
two more years. then the world. a world full of pain and loneliness with maybe a little bit of hope mixed in. just maybe.
perhaps the answer is simply to continue as i have recently. a moment-to-moment fragmentary existence is better than no existence at all.
how does one confront the enormity of life?
two more years. then the world. a world full of pain and loneliness with maybe a little bit of hope mixed in. just maybe.
perhaps the answer is simply to continue as i have recently. a moment-to-moment fragmentary existence is better than no existence at all.