...(same title as always)
so to anyone who is just gonna make some dumb lame comment dont bother ... this isnt for anyone it is for me ...
i have a weird feeling in my brain and it is hard to explain it ... i want to say its guilt and border-line rejection ... but i know for a fact that it isnt the second part...
now keep in mind this is my fingers talkin ... im not double thinkin or checkin any of this ... so DONT TAKE IT LITERAL...
i feel like im in the wrong ... like it seems that it doesnt matter as much to me ... and i hate it ... i want to be less selfish but i cant help it ... im ruining everything for myself
GOSH DARN IT WHAT THE HELL IS MY PROBLEM ...??
I cant make the ppl i care about the most, satisfied...
these thoughts are like internal combustion ... (that sounds right anyway...)
i keep things inside and i dont understand the significance of an issue so i observe the side effects and it burns me from the inside out ... i absolutely loath this feeling ... i just want to not feel like im imposing... i hear these christmas carols and cant help but ask what planet the ppl who write/sing these songs are from...
singing about ringing bells and having nothing better to do than to count down to one day must be great...
my ordeal is kind of like that
only i feel like im counting down
TILL THE DAY I SEE THAT PERFECT GENUINE SMILE!!
(HOPEFULLY SOON)
i have a weird feeling in my brain and it is hard to explain it ... i want to say its guilt and border-line rejection ... but i know for a fact that it isnt the second part...
now keep in mind this is my fingers talkin ... im not double thinkin or checkin any of this ... so DONT TAKE IT LITERAL...
i feel like im in the wrong ... like it seems that it doesnt matter as much to me ... and i hate it ... i want to be less selfish but i cant help it ... im ruining everything for myself
GOSH DARN IT WHAT THE HELL IS MY PROBLEM ...??
I cant make the ppl i care about the most, satisfied...
these thoughts are like internal combustion ... (that sounds right anyway...)
i keep things inside and i dont understand the significance of an issue so i observe the side effects and it burns me from the inside out ... i absolutely loath this feeling ... i just want to not feel like im imposing... i hear these christmas carols and cant help but ask what planet the ppl who write/sing these songs are from...
singing about ringing bells and having nothing better to do than to count down to one day must be great...
my ordeal is kind of like that
only i feel like im counting down
TILL THE DAY I SEE THAT PERFECT GENUINE SMILE!!
(HOPEFULLY SOON)