Directions
It's not that I have no ambition. It's more clearly stated that I have too much. I'm overwhelmed with things I want to do, things well outside the scope for the time I have. They're largely tasks which have no finite end, so I'm able to devote less and less time to each new thing while maintaining prior obligations. Time is the one resource that I'll never have enough of, and I'm already working on things 18 hours a day. There's a huge stack of books to read, games I want to play, places I want to go. Maybe I need to just let go of all these goals and be happy in the moment, instead of deriving happiness from checking off imaginary boxes. I'm not sure which way to go, and if feels like I'm making a terrible mistake some days. I'm brutally afraid of failing, and am I just doing this for the achievement?
Alice: Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?
The Cheshire Cat: That depends a good deal on where you want to get to.