post-worst day ever.
so friday....2 accidents, sickness, no voice, no improvement-all the good stuff. this sucks. i seriously feel wicked bad about hitting katie. uh. and now im going to have 2 accidents on my insurance thus-i have to pay more and i have no money. aaahhhhh. its not even like i care about that-i feel sooooo bad that i hit katie. i can tell shes super pissed but she keeps telling me "o its ok" and smiles. like if i was her yea, id be uber pissed. and vikki already said shes really mad : \ i have to work with her tomorrow...hopefully its not awkward. i have to talk to her about the accident too.
so prom....it kinda sucked. i was sick and i felt like ass. i just wanted wesley to be sweet and nice yet he wasnt. guarenteed he was good-ill give him that. i know he didnt really want to be there so i feel kinda bad bout that too. toward the end of the night he got awkward. i think someone said something to him...i was dancing with vik, justin & toby (o let me just say that justin is the sweetest kid ever-i love him) and i went back to hte table to see him and he just gave me the dirtiest look. then the limo ride home-that was miserable! everyone was layign with their dates...like all cuddley and cute. but nope-he was pissy and sat there yelling at sam. he easily could have come into the bedroom with me at vikkis and got some quick but he didnt so there i got pissed. then at after prom he went off with the boys-which was fine, i was sick and i just wanted to lay around anyway so whatever makes him happy. dont get me wrong-i have no problem with him hanging out with the boys...we arent going out and even if we were i wouldnt care...i dont expect him to be all over me ect-- all the time. i dunno by the time i left (like 300) i was to sick to care so i just went up and was like "hey-bye." nad just walked away and he left matt and came with me-which is like amazing. then he kissed me- and i went down from there. im such a sucker. i wanted to/planned on bringing up the subject of us to him but uh. i dont want to keep bringing it up and making him feel like he has to go one way or another. it just sucks that im sitting around. i know what i want and if he makes up his mind and is like "o nevermind- i dont want to be with u" itll be a complete heartbreak.
but ok im going to bed before i hack up my lungs and die. plus i have a busy day tomorrow : \ im scared. night lovies