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i never realized how hard it is to maintain a 4.0 somedays i wonder why i even try, especially when everything turns to shit. Working and school is wearing me down, i want so badly to not be sober but i know that will fuck up everything i've worked so hard for these past few months. Tomorrow will be a better day. I must sleep now and repeat the process of waking up before the sun comes out and getting home at 10 pm. Sweet dreams journal i'll write something of value this weekend when i have time to remember my own name and when my short term memory isn't polluted with food.