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So today was the car rally that me and rachel have been planning since the september retreat. It went really well. From what I have heared everyone had fun.
After words I spent the rest of the day in Selkirk hanging out with rachel. We drove around dropping off flyers for the fundraiser lunch they are holding. After that we went for dinner at pizza hut. Lots of laughs their. We then went to see the 40 year old virgin at their ghetto theater. $4.00 a person to get in and Popcorn was $4.50 for a large and you get a free refill with it! So that was fun.
After that we went back to her place and just talked for an hour or 2 and then I went home.
I came on my LJ and saw more stuff on it from tim/kevin even after I had said not to do it on my lj. So I when tim came on I decided to confront him on decideing to countinue the shit in my LJ. So that led to me starting to appologize one again. When things went wrong as usual. So now I am nothing but a big liar cuz I answered a question about someone and he was also including a time that was already discoused in a previous argument.
So in MY OPINION we both have been stubern asses who have been expecting the other to make the next step. But in MY OPINION tim is just trying to get me to end this whole friendship so that he can say he was the victum. Now I am not saying that I am the victum, but we both have gone on the attack and now we both are paying for it.
In the end I am feeling more and more like this is a long lost battle and no longer wish to keep arguing about it.
So from now on I will say HI to them every time I see them online and say that I am sorry. I have a feeling that it will not work what-so-ever but I will try to keep all lines of comunication open and maybe we will all be able to forgive each other and work this out.
Am I typing this to try and save face? Not really. I am typing this because well... I am done with all the fighting, I wanna just go on with my life and be happy. I would rather be happy with them in my life then without. But I know that I can't have everything my way.
I know they want me to say it is 100% all my fault but deep down I know it is not 100% my fault.
Tim calles me a liar and how I have planted a seed of lies and fed it to become a tree of lies.
Do I lie? yes. Have I been lieing to them about this whole situation? No. Have I said I lie or 2 to try to help redeam myself? yes, but I have never said a major lie. I might change a few minor facts to try and save face, but nothing that should have caused such backlash.
See and now by posting this is will be considered my amission of guilt and I will forever be cast aside.
But I just feel I need to get this off my chest. I still hold open the option to sit down and talk this all out. If you have a problem with anything I have said in this post come forword and talk to me. Don't drag all my other friends into more of this shit. Thats all I ask.
After words I spent the rest of the day in Selkirk hanging out with rachel. We drove around dropping off flyers for the fundraiser lunch they are holding. After that we went for dinner at pizza hut. Lots of laughs their. We then went to see the 40 year old virgin at their ghetto theater. $4.00 a person to get in and Popcorn was $4.50 for a large and you get a free refill with it! So that was fun.
After that we went back to her place and just talked for an hour or 2 and then I went home.
I came on my LJ and saw more stuff on it from tim/kevin even after I had said not to do it on my lj. So I when tim came on I decided to confront him on decideing to countinue the shit in my LJ. So that led to me starting to appologize one again. When things went wrong as usual. So now I am nothing but a big liar cuz I answered a question about someone and he was also including a time that was already discoused in a previous argument.
So in MY OPINION we both have been stubern asses who have been expecting the other to make the next step. But in MY OPINION tim is just trying to get me to end this whole friendship so that he can say he was the victum. Now I am not saying that I am the victum, but we both have gone on the attack and now we both are paying for it.
In the end I am feeling more and more like this is a long lost battle and no longer wish to keep arguing about it.
So from now on I will say HI to them every time I see them online and say that I am sorry. I have a feeling that it will not work what-so-ever but I will try to keep all lines of comunication open and maybe we will all be able to forgive each other and work this out.
Am I typing this to try and save face? Not really. I am typing this because well... I am done with all the fighting, I wanna just go on with my life and be happy. I would rather be happy with them in my life then without. But I know that I can't have everything my way.
I know they want me to say it is 100% all my fault but deep down I know it is not 100% my fault.
Tim calles me a liar and how I have planted a seed of lies and fed it to become a tree of lies.
Do I lie? yes. Have I been lieing to them about this whole situation? No. Have I said I lie or 2 to try to help redeam myself? yes, but I have never said a major lie. I might change a few minor facts to try and save face, but nothing that should have caused such backlash.
See and now by posting this is will be considered my amission of guilt and I will forever be cast aside.
But I just feel I need to get this off my chest. I still hold open the option to sit down and talk this all out. If you have a problem with anything I have said in this post come forword and talk to me. Don't drag all my other friends into more of this shit. Thats all I ask.