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so i went thru my long stage of not really wanting to be social with anyone - and all of a sudden - it's over. i don't know why i got so depressed and moped for so long - and i'm kinda aggervated that i did. but now - i'm in such a good place - and i'm so glad. my son is due anytime within the next month now... (officially oct 25th but everyone says he'll come sooner - i'm hopin for halloween though lol) and i've been stressing everything - but... i've come to the conclusion that getting upset and stressing and worrying about things that haven't even happened yet is dumb. I can never be prepared enough for becoming a mom so the best thing I can do is just be there for him and wing it. I've also been so worried about post-partum.... which only got me more depressed now - which just increased the chances that i'll have it after the baby - but it'll be okay if I get post-partum - because I have a great support system everywhere I go. So what am I so worried about? Hell if I know.
I've got a part time job that I'll probably officially start after I've healed and had the baby. I'll have my own room with my own desk and my own computer and I'm going to fix peoples credit and finance people for houses. Mostly I'll be talking to people on the phone and typing on the computer. And the best thing of all, the lady who is hiring me is due in november, and understands the mothering thing perfectly and is giving me my own room so I can bring my baby to work with me! So up until I have the baby she's going to be training me in what I'll be doing - and once I'm trained and stuff, I can take a state test and become certified in real-estate financing. Plus I'm going to have my full-paid bright futures scholarship that I still want to take advantage of but I probably wont start going to college till fall of 06 - which gives me plently of time to learn this stuff - as atleast a fall back and a way to make some money without neglecting my baby. I'm so excited!
Well - I've still not gotten a phone at my house - or the internet - because Chris put the phone line at his house in his name for his mom awhile back ago - and she never paid the bill... so we've just been waiting on her to give us the money for the bill... which shes supposed to do soon - so that means I can keep this thing updated more often - and keep in touch with people better since I'm always low on my cell minutes and can't really call out because it's my only phone.
well I've gone on enough. I'm supposed to be getting pictures taken of me and my belly so if that ever happens I'll post it up here! xoxox
I've got a part time job that I'll probably officially start after I've healed and had the baby. I'll have my own room with my own desk and my own computer and I'm going to fix peoples credit and finance people for houses. Mostly I'll be talking to people on the phone and typing on the computer. And the best thing of all, the lady who is hiring me is due in november, and understands the mothering thing perfectly and is giving me my own room so I can bring my baby to work with me! So up until I have the baby she's going to be training me in what I'll be doing - and once I'm trained and stuff, I can take a state test and become certified in real-estate financing. Plus I'm going to have my full-paid bright futures scholarship that I still want to take advantage of but I probably wont start going to college till fall of 06 - which gives me plently of time to learn this stuff - as atleast a fall back and a way to make some money without neglecting my baby. I'm so excited!
Well - I've still not gotten a phone at my house - or the internet - because Chris put the phone line at his house in his name for his mom awhile back ago - and she never paid the bill... so we've just been waiting on her to give us the money for the bill... which shes supposed to do soon - so that means I can keep this thing updated more often - and keep in touch with people better since I'm always low on my cell minutes and can't really call out because it's my only phone.
well I've gone on enough. I'm supposed to be getting pictures taken of me and my belly so if that ever happens I'll post it up here! xoxox