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after 17 short years of not having a boyfriend....the saga continues. I have been stuck in a rutt when it comes to guys since as far back as i can remember. not one relationship has seemed to go right. so now after testing the waters with a few different boys, i feel used. just in general. well just by the boys who i have wasted my time with. after being literally "played" by two different guys... in a row, i am lost. not to mention the fact that any other guy who i have liked in the past didnt last long enough to show them the inside of my house, let alone call them my boyfriend. but that is old news. what is new news is im pissed! this is all bullshit. i have been swooned by too many boys, and then they treat me like shit!! and thats not even being dramatic. it seems hopeless to me. but from now on, i am uping my standards. and by that i mean, from this day forth i am in search of a guy who i can trust, who will respect me, and who will love me for ever annoying trait i have. yes i am aware that i should have been looking for these traits from the begining, but i didnt. i was once a niave girl who let guys get away with their scams and lies, but now, i dont think so. soo now, i have to learn and grow from my mistakes, because i do not deserve this horrible treatment. i am not here for u to dismiss me, or to push aside when another girl walks back in. where is the love people? honestly, let me now where it is