My life
I'm a hardcore Catholic. When I graduated from high school at age 18, I fully expected that I would be engaged by the time I graduated from grad school, if not married. Or, wedding date set. Then we'd get married, he'd get a job and be the breadwinner, we'd settle down, and before long I'd be turning out Catholic babies. That was what I wanted.
Guess what. I'm about to graduate from grad school, and I don't even have a boyfriend.
I'm watching all my other friends, my friends MY age, get married and getting ready to start families. Why didn't I get that? Why can't Ifind someone who loves me, and that I love?
I've been wrong
I had plans so big
But the devil's in the details
I left out one thing
No one to love me...
And no one to love
I'm graduating from grad school in December...one of the very very few in my family to ever get a post-bachelor's degree. I have the job of a lifetime lined up that most people would give a limb for. I'm musical- I play four instruments, sing two voice parts, and am learning to play two more. I'm successfully battling a mental illness. I get good grades. I have good friends, I have hobbies.
And yet, I have no significant other. My chances of having a biological child, something I have always wanted, are very slim as a result of my drugs. I know that there are other options, but I've just given up. I don't think that my life is going to be what I want it to be. Don't get me wrong, I want to do my best to be happy and do things that bring me joy... but I think that something will always be missing in my heart.
I've given up my dream.
P.S.- Rachel, I know you will have something to say about this :-)
Guess what. I'm about to graduate from grad school, and I don't even have a boyfriend.
I'm watching all my other friends, my friends MY age, get married and getting ready to start families. Why didn't I get that? Why can't Ifind someone who loves me, and that I love?
I've been wrong
I had plans so big
But the devil's in the details
I left out one thing
No one to love me...
And no one to love
I'm graduating from grad school in December...one of the very very few in my family to ever get a post-bachelor's degree. I have the job of a lifetime lined up that most people would give a limb for. I'm musical- I play four instruments, sing two voice parts, and am learning to play two more. I'm successfully battling a mental illness. I get good grades. I have good friends, I have hobbies.
And yet, I have no significant other. My chances of having a biological child, something I have always wanted, are very slim as a result of my drugs. I know that there are other options, but I've just given up. I don't think that my life is going to be what I want it to be. Don't get me wrong, I want to do my best to be happy and do things that bring me joy... but I think that something will always be missing in my heart.
I've given up my dream.
P.S.- Rachel, I know you will have something to say about this :-)