nothing is ever the same as they said it was. it's what i've never seen that i recognise.

[intoallshapes]

"while we regret that the present is not like the past and despair of its ever becoming the future; we lie in wait for their meaning..."

i don't know who i am anymore. i'm lost with no direction of where i want to go. i no longer hold any meaning to my life. there's nothing holding me together and i watch as people rip me apart, but i don't care anymore. i just go where life takes me. i can't even remember any of it, anyway.

i don't know why i do what i do, but until it's done - i will never know. how will i learn right from wrong if i never take the chance of experiencing either. who am i to judge what other people do when i don't even know what i'm doing myself. everything happens for a reason after all.

i don't know why i'm writing this...i don't know why i'm feeling this way. i don't know anything anymore.