life in general
it's been awhile since i last posted, and my last post was full of anger, which is the last thing i'm feeling right now, so i figured it would be a good time to update y'all...this may jump around a bit so be prepared...
i'm finally happy. i've been discharged from counseling services for the time being. i'm allowed to go back if i feel the need to, but my psychologist told me that it seemed like i was finally where i needed to be in my life, so i went with it, and he's right. i'm finally where i need to be. i'm having a fucking blast up here in athens. i miss everyone in PTC, yes, but since i've found my newfound happiness and my new outlook on life, i've been living it up. i've been living for myself. there are some who tell me that i'm being selfish, there are some who tell me that i need to think about other people...i do think about other people, but here's how i perceive this...i can't make everyone happy. it's physically not possible. so, instead of trying to do everything to make other people happy and forgetting about myself, i'm doing the opposite. i'm doing what makes me happy, and if there are people who can't understand that then you're not worth my time. i'm happy...if you care about me you'd be happy for me...you might not agree with some things i say/do, but you'd at least be like "let her learn her own lessons, she's a big girl, and right now she's having the time of her life"
mom, brady, and bones came up this past weekend. it was a ball...i had so much fun with them up here. i won my first lax game in my lax career saturday morning and they were there to see it. then we went out to eat, came back to the room and chatted/listened to music, then i went downtown w/the lax girls. the next day we went downtown and wandered aimlessly around athens, going into record stores and hanging out and playing dress up in junkman's daughter's brother. it was so much fun. i miss that kind of stuff from home. spending time with my mommy and my brother, and occasionally i miss bones too (haha, you know i love you bonesy). it was a fun weekend...
yes, i have a new boyfriend. his name is parker, and he's everything i need right now in my life. i know i just got out of a relationship with steve, but something about me and parker just seems so right. we both clicked well the first time we met, and since then it's just been building up...he's really a great guy, i promise. the night before my first counseling session, i was terrified and he was the only one to ask me if i was alright, and when i told him no, he sat and listened to everything i had to say. he didn't judge me, he didn't criticize me, he just listened...something i needed. now i've been thrust into this world of spontaniety, and i love it. he's starting up a band with a guy he met 2 weeks ago, and everything is going in their favor. spontaneous gigs are popping up left and right, skot's songwriting + parker's guitar work = amazing. i really wish everyone could be a part of this all with me, but i feel very privileged to be in parker's life. i feel like i'm on this huge rollercoaster ride of fun and adventure. it's really a completely new experience to me, and i love every second of it...this is where i need to be...
yes, i'm finally happy...i'm sorry if you don't like it...
<3-kourt
i'm finally happy. i've been discharged from counseling services for the time being. i'm allowed to go back if i feel the need to, but my psychologist told me that it seemed like i was finally where i needed to be in my life, so i went with it, and he's right. i'm finally where i need to be. i'm having a fucking blast up here in athens. i miss everyone in PTC, yes, but since i've found my newfound happiness and my new outlook on life, i've been living it up. i've been living for myself. there are some who tell me that i'm being selfish, there are some who tell me that i need to think about other people...i do think about other people, but here's how i perceive this...i can't make everyone happy. it's physically not possible. so, instead of trying to do everything to make other people happy and forgetting about myself, i'm doing the opposite. i'm doing what makes me happy, and if there are people who can't understand that then you're not worth my time. i'm happy...if you care about me you'd be happy for me...you might not agree with some things i say/do, but you'd at least be like "let her learn her own lessons, she's a big girl, and right now she's having the time of her life"
mom, brady, and bones came up this past weekend. it was a ball...i had so much fun with them up here. i won my first lax game in my lax career saturday morning and they were there to see it. then we went out to eat, came back to the room and chatted/listened to music, then i went downtown w/the lax girls. the next day we went downtown and wandered aimlessly around athens, going into record stores and hanging out and playing dress up in junkman's daughter's brother. it was so much fun. i miss that kind of stuff from home. spending time with my mommy and my brother, and occasionally i miss bones too (haha, you know i love you bonesy). it was a fun weekend...
yes, i have a new boyfriend. his name is parker, and he's everything i need right now in my life. i know i just got out of a relationship with steve, but something about me and parker just seems so right. we both clicked well the first time we met, and since then it's just been building up...he's really a great guy, i promise. the night before my first counseling session, i was terrified and he was the only one to ask me if i was alright, and when i told him no, he sat and listened to everything i had to say. he didn't judge me, he didn't criticize me, he just listened...something i needed. now i've been thrust into this world of spontaniety, and i love it. he's starting up a band with a guy he met 2 weeks ago, and everything is going in their favor. spontaneous gigs are popping up left and right, skot's songwriting + parker's guitar work = amazing. i really wish everyone could be a part of this all with me, but i feel very privileged to be in parker's life. i feel like i'm on this huge rollercoaster ride of fun and adventure. it's really a completely new experience to me, and i love every second of it...this is where i need to be...
yes, i'm finally happy...i'm sorry if you don't like it...
<3-kourt