oh the possibilities!
Today i came home from work sick...BLAH! I've been feeling sick the past few days and it has not been cool in the least! I can't eat, i'm always tired and my head is throbbing. I just want to feel better!! Alot has been going on lately if you've read...but it's all just stupid drama that i unfortunately allowed myself to be involved in. oh well i'm over it. But alot has been going on with my friends it seems like. There is so much crap going on in peoples lives. It's unbelieveble! I just fell overwhelmed. I feel like it's my job to keep everyone happy when it's obviously not. I read my last entry again and i realized i sounded alot like someone who was very bitter. And i think that's my problem i'm still holding onto alot of bitterness. This is only going to make me turn out like my dad. And i don't want that...at ALL! SO i just need to let things go. Let certain friendships go. Because i know i can never repair them. Oh well life will go on.
On another note, this special friend i was talking about well things are kind of scary. I don't know i guess it's just moving to fast for me. I mean i think i only met the boy a month and 1/2 ago. And right now i'm just not sure if having him there is going to get in the way of my relationship with God....since we know that's been on the rocks lately. I don't know i guess this time i just don't want any distractions.... but then again i think it's cool that him and i have eachother along with K and M to support one another in this time. I don't know i think sometimes i'm just too scared to let someone care about me. I think i'm afraid i'll hurt them or they'll hurt me. I think that's another thing i just need to get over. I guess it's like how will i ever know if i don't try this thing out.... but then comes the question of where are my feelings at? I still have no clue how i truly feel. One day it's one thing and the next it's nothing at all. hmm... we'll see i got all the time in the world.
SO Amy is moving in this weekend!!! Which is super fantastic! God i can't wait!! It'll be a blast no doubt! Another girl in the house to spice up the entertainment. Man she is going to think me kelb, and kait are all sooooo weird! HAHA this will be fun!! Anyway, kids i'm gonna hit the books since i got a load of hw!
MUCH LOVE
YOURS TRULY!! <3
On another note, this special friend i was talking about well things are kind of scary. I don't know i guess it's just moving to fast for me. I mean i think i only met the boy a month and 1/2 ago. And right now i'm just not sure if having him there is going to get in the way of my relationship with God....since we know that's been on the rocks lately. I don't know i guess this time i just don't want any distractions.... but then again i think it's cool that him and i have eachother along with K and M to support one another in this time. I don't know i think sometimes i'm just too scared to let someone care about me. I think i'm afraid i'll hurt them or they'll hurt me. I think that's another thing i just need to get over. I guess it's like how will i ever know if i don't try this thing out.... but then comes the question of where are my feelings at? I still have no clue how i truly feel. One day it's one thing and the next it's nothing at all. hmm... we'll see i got all the time in the world.
SO Amy is moving in this weekend!!! Which is super fantastic! God i can't wait!! It'll be a blast no doubt! Another girl in the house to spice up the entertainment. Man she is going to think me kelb, and kait are all sooooo weird! HAHA this will be fun!! Anyway, kids i'm gonna hit the books since i got a load of hw!
MUCH LOVE
YOURS TRULY!! <3