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Sometimes I wonder what it is that I do that makes people feel so awkward. And the fact that I don't know what it is makes me that much more naive and, quite frankly, ignorant. I have just exposed myself to you. My huge weakness. I admit that I have no fucking clue when it comes to conversing with another person. Check out a sample conversation:
Somebody: What's up Mike?
Me: Not alot, how about you?
Somebody: Oh nothin.
Me: Still dating that one person?
Somebody: No...
Me: I see...
(I would also give an example where someone metions a word and I somehow find a way to interject myself into the conversation and mention some random fact about whatever they were talking about.)
Of course it wasn't exactly like that but that is the jist of it. I can't beleive I just used the word "jist". What makes me even more bitter is the fact that I know that I can't talk to people without sounding like I am trying be condescending or making them feel stupid, and yet I can't figure out how to correct it. Human nature is a terrible thing. It really is. And it takes one who is that much of a victim of it to realize it. Am I blaming my social handicap of human nature? No. I blame myself and the fact that I try to hard to make friends . Many times I have succeeded and made some of the best friends I will ever have. But failing is a horrible thing and we all have to accept failiure every-once in a while. And it never hurts to not dwell on things to much. Which is also something I need to improve on. Am I bashing myself? No. I am just evaluating the way that I do things. And like all evaluations there are points to be made as well as subjects that need to be discussed in order for the whatever to function properly. Unbeknownst to me, there was someone Instant Messaging me while I have been typing this. They signed off. It may be an accurate assumption to say that they thoroughly consider me an asshole now. Things have a funny way of working out. And that is the moral to this little story. Good-Night Folks.
Somebody: What's up Mike?
Me: Not alot, how about you?
Somebody: Oh nothin.
Me: Still dating that one person?
Somebody: No...
Me: I see...
(I would also give an example where someone metions a word and I somehow find a way to interject myself into the conversation and mention some random fact about whatever they were talking about.)
Of course it wasn't exactly like that but that is the jist of it. I can't beleive I just used the word "jist". What makes me even more bitter is the fact that I know that I can't talk to people without sounding like I am trying be condescending or making them feel stupid, and yet I can't figure out how to correct it. Human nature is a terrible thing. It really is. And it takes one who is that much of a victim of it to realize it. Am I blaming my social handicap of human nature? No. I blame myself and the fact that I try to hard to make friends . Many times I have succeeded and made some of the best friends I will ever have. But failing is a horrible thing and we all have to accept failiure every-once in a while. And it never hurts to not dwell on things to much. Which is also something I need to improve on. Am I bashing myself? No. I am just evaluating the way that I do things. And like all evaluations there are points to be made as well as subjects that need to be discussed in order for the whatever to function properly. Unbeknownst to me, there was someone Instant Messaging me while I have been typing this. They signed off. It may be an accurate assumption to say that they thoroughly consider me an asshole now. Things have a funny way of working out. And that is the moral to this little story. Good-Night Folks.