[Filtered away from Lindsay]
j'ai cherche les diplomes a toulouse parce que je me suis ennuye a mort. et curieux. et il y a BEAUCOUP BEAUCOUP BEAUCOUP des cours pour l'art. mais je pense que on doit avoir le bac? et je n'ai pas le bac. j'ai 3 a levels tout grade a mais ca ne compte pas (selon mon pere) parce que ils ne sont pas maths or science. :/ and that dont matter if you WANT to do art or fashion or whatever so he can go to hell with everyone else who thinks i'm thick cos i aint even if i cant talk french properly STILL and i dont know where the squiggly bits go on the letters, i bet thats all wrong up there and Lindsays filtered out cos he'll only laugh at me for being stupid
and i dont know why i'm even bothering lookign cos i'm never gonna do anythgin about it cos it was hard enough trying to get a degree anyway whan i was at college in LONDON all in ENGLISH
i feel all restless. like being bored but not exactly. i dont know what. i dont want to stay stuck here in this fuckign dead end town my whole life doing old lady's perms but i'mnot good enough at nothing else. dont pity me. i dont need *hugs* or nothing or people telling me i'm wrong cos i;m not wrong thats just a FACT i'm not good at nothing. i'm a bit good at some things but not REALLY good at anything, i aint good enough to be a rockstar or an artist or make clothes or NOTHING so idk maybe i AM meant to just rot here forever cos in london you blend in like a raindrop in the sea but at leats here people know who i am and care
dont say nothing to Lindsay, he'll only get upset if he thinks i hate it here and i DONT, just sometimes. sometiems its ok but sometimes i hate it, its gonna be ok tommorrow but today I HATE IT HERE but i spose its not realy the place, maybe i would just hate being ANYWHERE cos i'm in a stupid shit mood and nothings going right today
AAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH
ok now i'm going to sleep and tommorrow will be brilliant :D :D
and i dont know why i'm even bothering lookign cos i'm never gonna do anythgin about it cos it was hard enough trying to get a degree anyway whan i was at college in LONDON all in ENGLISH
i feel all restless. like being bored but not exactly. i dont know what. i dont want to stay stuck here in this fuckign dead end town my whole life doing old lady's perms but i'mnot good enough at nothing else. dont pity me. i dont need *hugs* or nothing or people telling me i'm wrong cos i;m not wrong thats just a FACT i'm not good at nothing. i'm a bit good at some things but not REALLY good at anything, i aint good enough to be a rockstar or an artist or make clothes or NOTHING so idk maybe i AM meant to just rot here forever cos in london you blend in like a raindrop in the sea but at leats here people know who i am and care
dont say nothing to Lindsay, he'll only get upset if he thinks i hate it here and i DONT, just sometimes. sometiems its ok but sometimes i hate it, its gonna be ok tommorrow but today I HATE IT HERE but i spose its not realy the place, maybe i would just hate being ANYWHERE cos i'm in a stupid shit mood and nothings going right today
AAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH
ok now i'm going to sleep and tommorrow will be brilliant :D :D