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Today me and my sister hung out. we went shopping, drove around, then found a relaxing spot a little ways down Jefferson to sit by the water and talk. For once in a long time I actually thought about things in a different way. I realized how lucky I am. Yes, I have had and still have more pain and hard times to go through but experience life at different angles. I mean, I do have friends, its not like I go through my days having no one to talk to, no one to call, no one to care, no one to hug. I dont get made fun of half as much as other people out there. Im healthy, Im able to make my own decisions, Im able to have complete control over the way I act. I have a house. with heat and air conditioner which alot of people dont. I have clothes. Im able to go to the movies, go bowling, or do other activities. Ive just spent so many years trying to meet up to what richer people have. I, and probably every one of you, tryed in many ways to be close to better than the people around us. Id say mostly my friends. theyd get more... and Id want the same. In doing so, I became so selfish, so stubborn, so rude.
Well, another summer has almost passed. Ive met people and gotton close to people that I am so thankful for. Ive discovered alot of new things and more of me that I never knew before. I now realize that mostly everything bad does happen for a reason. Being hurt by guys made me build my guard up higher so I wouldnt give myself away so easily. Having friends backstab me and stuff only made it so I dont trust so easily to prevent me from future heartbreak and unnessasary drama. Well, I guess thats all Im going to say for now... I'm Abby... hate it or love it. :-P
Okay... So Im not completely done. I need a spot to add the kewlest person. My sister Eleah. Shes the only person who can say "I understand" and mean it. Shes been hurt so many times and still she stayed strong. I can be myself around her and she can be herself around me. I can joke around and be so freakin stupid with her then be so serious and get into deep conversation. We get into our fights and say things we dont mean but still remain as close as ever. Alot of what Kayla said wednesday night really got me thinking about having siblings actually there. ah it was so touching! I love you Kay! I love my friends... family! I love you Lea!
Alllright Im really going to go now!!!
<3333333333333333 Abbyyyy :-*