I am disappointed every morning when I wake up...

[inthemortalcity]

I want to go home. I want to have a home. I want a room that is mine, I want a space that is mine, I want to not be on edge every second of every day.

I want to not be dying of heat all the time, and I want a bathtub I can actually use. I want to be able to actually use my desk as a workspace. I want my dog back.

I want my medication back. I want to stop having to worry about where the hell I'm going to be in a few weeks. I want to stop being on the verge of tears all the time. I want to be able to care about things, and I want to be able to write, and I want to stop being bored all the fucking time and unable to do anything about it. I want a whole day where I don't think about how useless I am and how much better it would be if I were dead.

I want to feel like anything's ever going to be okay again. I want literally anything but this.