I can see it coming from the edge of the room, smiling in the streetlight...
Freaking out about everything.
I am now uninsured, because the military is terrible and wants me to suffer. Trying to get an appointment with one of the free clinics in the area, but actually getting in contact with anyone is apparently all but impossible.
I am running out of meds (and skipping meds for days at a time, because the idea of actually running out sends me into panic attacks). I probably cannot afford new meds whenever I do finally get a prescription. I have gotten really fond of not crying and sleeping all the time, and not wanting to kill myself, and I am fucking terrified to see all of that coming for me again.
We still don't have a place to live, and we have a deadline coming up fast - at the end of the month, we need to leave here, and I am not positive we will have somewhere to go. It is too damn hot and we have too many people and animals to live out of the car until we figure something out; we would literally die. If we find a place, I have no idea where we will find the money to put down first and last month's rent plus a deposit.
I cannot get anything done because I can't focus around the overwhelming panic, and I am not particularly productive when I'm unmedicated, and ugh, that's another thing I'm going to lose when my meds run out. I have been doing so well and I want to cry because there's nothing I can do.
I am now uninsured, because the military is terrible and wants me to suffer. Trying to get an appointment with one of the free clinics in the area, but actually getting in contact with anyone is apparently all but impossible.
I am running out of meds (and skipping meds for days at a time, because the idea of actually running out sends me into panic attacks). I probably cannot afford new meds whenever I do finally get a prescription. I have gotten really fond of not crying and sleeping all the time, and not wanting to kill myself, and I am fucking terrified to see all of that coming for me again.
We still don't have a place to live, and we have a deadline coming up fast - at the end of the month, we need to leave here, and I am not positive we will have somewhere to go. It is too damn hot and we have too many people and animals to live out of the car until we figure something out; we would literally die. If we find a place, I have no idea where we will find the money to put down first and last month's rent plus a deposit.
I cannot get anything done because I can't focus around the overwhelming panic, and I am not particularly productive when I'm unmedicated, and ugh, that's another thing I'm going to lose when my meds run out. I have been doing so well and I want to cry because there's nothing I can do.