the joy you bring to the simple things in my life
man has it been awhile for this thing. september of last year to be in fact. but here i go....
today i buried my great grandfather. he was such a HUGE part of my life and now it feels like i'm closing that chapter, i'm now a new me...all simply because of the passing of a wonderful man. today was emotional, but being me, i kept my composure for the most part. i wrote him a letter and slipped it in his pocket. i am so lucky for the fact that i got to have him for so many years. most people can't say that about their great grandparents. and he was SO active and nothing like you'd expect a 90 something year old to be. just simply amazing. he played hide and seek with me....the only adult to ever do so. wow, so much. and i was the last person he told he told he loved...and that makes me smile. and now that the seed has been planted he's up there smiling the biggest he's ever....this all make me content.
in other news my life is starting to pick up and be more awesome than it has in a loooong while. i have had so many weights lifted off my shoulders lately. so many. of course there are still several things i continue to work at or will soon that will make it even better. i get to share my days with a special friend again and that's beyond neat. crazy as well. i wish i could just be hit in the had with a stick and told "the past is the past"...and believe that of course...then all would be right. why must i let things linger....ehhhh. but yes, life is treating me well.
i just recieved a neat easter present. sweetness.
and i must note that i look very adult today....for whatever reason. i think it's my funeral clothes...but it's neat considering i look 16 most of my days.
on to bowl and get my mind off todays sadness.
1,2,3
today i buried my great grandfather. he was such a HUGE part of my life and now it feels like i'm closing that chapter, i'm now a new me...all simply because of the passing of a wonderful man. today was emotional, but being me, i kept my composure for the most part. i wrote him a letter and slipped it in his pocket. i am so lucky for the fact that i got to have him for so many years. most people can't say that about their great grandparents. and he was SO active and nothing like you'd expect a 90 something year old to be. just simply amazing. he played hide and seek with me....the only adult to ever do so. wow, so much. and i was the last person he told he told he loved...and that makes me smile. and now that the seed has been planted he's up there smiling the biggest he's ever....this all make me content.
in other news my life is starting to pick up and be more awesome than it has in a loooong while. i have had so many weights lifted off my shoulders lately. so many. of course there are still several things i continue to work at or will soon that will make it even better. i get to share my days with a special friend again and that's beyond neat. crazy as well. i wish i could just be hit in the had with a stick and told "the past is the past"...and believe that of course...then all would be right. why must i let things linger....ehhhh. but yes, life is treating me well.
i just recieved a neat easter present. sweetness.
and i must note that i look very adult today....for whatever reason. i think it's my funeral clothes...but it's neat considering i look 16 most of my days.
on to bowl and get my mind off todays sadness.
1,2,3