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just shove everything away into it's own little box, stick it up in the attick where you wont see it for a really long time...right? That's how you get rid of your problems right? Because ignorance is bliss, so I've discovered the hard way. But what if it is not bliss that you seek? But more of an enjoyable reality? What then? Now that you have shoved reality away in the attick it hurts all the worse when it comes back to bite you in the ass, seeing as you couldn't possible enjoy the ignorant bliss you were supposed to be steeping in, since it was the complete opposite of what you wanted to result from all of your labors. One more layer of dirt to burry me even further in this ditch. Another massive problem created in the process of attempting to discard all others. A a not so lonely life that is so solitary, and a not so painful life that makes you wish speed to death to end this madness. Yes, such a double standard of a life that I am not quite sure what it is anymore. Bi-polar I must say. Such extremeties, where did my happy median go?