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I FINALLY like someone...FINALLY, this isn't really new, been happening for about a month, but I haven't written in here for a while, so it's new to the internet! I got my first real kiss this weekend! And I didn't fuck it up!!! Ummmmmmm...I've been in therapy for a while now, and I'm kind of fed up with it, I think I just wanted to get a shrink to gain some hope, and then continue on my own. I don't want to find myself through someone else. You know? I've been doing better, but I don't think it has anything to do with me seeing this shrink, it's more because I found a group of people that I can chill with, and we're all cool with each other and shit, I actually have a life, and "friends"...I'm accepted somewhere, it's awesome, it's new to me. I've been kind of down the last two days though, I'm not sure why, I feel kind of lonely, but I'm sure it'll get better. I'm going to start going to yoga, maybe instead of therapy, I think it would be more beneficial, and in this case I think the only person who can help me is myself, so why waste time and money trying to get someone else to do it for me? I've got my hope, and I'll be on my way. I'm babysitting tonight, I really don't want to, because I'm really really tired, but I'll manage, money is money, haha, even though it's only for two hours so it wont be very much, I'll still put it in the bank, and be good. I don't spend money, don't know why, I just don't like to, I don't like to shop either, I like to make my own stuff, doesn't go down well in Southern California, but hey, I'll get out one of these days. Well, I kind of find writing pointless when there is nothing to be philosophical about, so I'll take my leave, good morrow.