I remember
It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breaking
Been a while since I updated, basic updates about my life: ended employment with BCA. It has been many months spent working with the awesome bunch of colleagues in BCA CPC/PDMD - MechC Department (: I won't say I have learnt a lot of things during my part time job ... after all my job scope was kept simple and easy. But it was a good experience learning how to interact - and actually realising how government depts work internally. Gained new exposure, and I am really thankful for my colleagues to always care about my well-being, and freuently chit chatting with me when I am/they are bored at work (:And I guess that's how I managed to get through my employment period. I don't entirely regret extending my contract at the end of March, because April + May have been a different approach working as well, with many incidents happening anyway. Overall, I am contented that my first ever part time job has ended on a good note (:
Alright enough about the working life hmm. University stuff ... it's just complicated. And I wish that everything will be settled soon. There is a possibility I won't get it right ... I guess I just have to brace myself for it. But it's really something that I want really badly ): Nobody will ever understand how I feel. Maybe slightly, but not entirely. And waiting does suck okay? Even if it will be worth the wait ultimately. But people need to start realising that waiting for something so important to me is really killing me on the inside slowly, even if I don't show it as much. Ugh ): I hate this feeling of everything being uncertain, please let everything be finalised soon? I'm just ... tired of waiting already.
Songs songs songs. New song(s) from Avril Lavigne, Lana Del Rey, etc. Mega awesome songs w good lyrics + melody, coupled with their powerful voices, simply makes the songs so mesmerising *o* I'll never ever get tired of listening to English songs, it's what I grew up with, and what I will continue to listen as life goes on. I guess it's 'cos I'm into kpop now that people start thinking I prefer korean songs over english songs ... untrue. English songs will always be the type/genre that I fall back on (:
But with that said, I must admit there are good songs out there in the kpop industry. I like to listen to songs with lyrics that convey deep meanings that sometimes strikes the chords on my heart, especially those songs with lyrics that I can directly relate to ... My latest/current addiction is I Remember - Daehyun ft. Yongguk. Original song of I Remember was sung by Yoseob ft. Yongguk, and TSEnt released an official version of Daehyun's (: Personally prefer Dae's version, although Yoseob's one is really good too. Maybe I'm just biased because I really love Dae's voice + he's so adorable *o* gives off a different vibe. And most importantly, I Remember has the melody that sounds like an English song (personal opinion lol), it kind of just caught my attention the first time I heard it. Even from a non biased POV, I know I'll enjoy this song. The lyrics just makes it seem so, idk, personal to me? Some parts of the translated lyrics here
I don’t know why I still remember,
All our memories that were like a living hell.
I’ll remember our past. You were playing around with me.
Thanks to you, everything’s changed for me.
The side of me that used to be able to laugh, doesn’t exist anymore.
Love is a joke to me now; my crushed heart.
Our old habits are holding onto us,
You’re often unconsciously falling into a nightmare-like world.
But still, because I was in love with you,
I won’t ever forget you. Yes, I remember.
Even if I close my eyes, I still see us.
There’s still a light there.
I’ll deeply retain the times we had together.
Even if pain comes over time,
The promise I made for the rest of my life,
I won’t ever forget that moment until the end.
I Remember
I should stop all these random blabberings soon LOL, after I'm done with this post I'll be prepping to head out yey. Gonna bring my book along, went to the library a few days ago to borrow some books to read (: Detective/mystery novels hee. Just my type lolol.
Till then xx